It was a stupid thing to do. Before yesterday I'd taken 2mg at a time on two seperate occasions. I just wanted it to make me feel good, to get away. It didn't do much for me, all the paranoid thoughts and insecurities were still there, lost some memory too. So I took 4mg at the one time (8 0.5mg pills) and at the beginning I felt the same as I did on the 2mg, a bit detached. I got onto a train and fell asleep and woke up again between two stations that are two minutes apart. I don't remember the rest. I went to some other station, sent my mum a text message that I don't remember sending, and picked me up from some station. I don't remember what the h**l happened, going home, anything. I went to sleep as soon as I got home and woke up in the middle of the night and flushed that c**p down the toilet. My mum said I was like a disorientated drunk person. My concern is, is it possible to have permanently damaged myself (nervous system?) in some way by taking 4mg of Xanax at the one time?
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