When I was 9 I had a bad time due to violence from my mums husband then at 12 we moved but she still stayed with him but he didn't live with us (long story) at 13 I started to become really upset about nothing and I started to cut my wrists my mum found out got really angry so with all my power I stopped. then at 14 we moved and my mums husband moved in with us again and the violence started but 8 months later my mum had enough and chucked him but he is still around to see his kids. since then everything in the past has just come back in memories and I feel so down I know its normal for teenagers to feel upset but I don't think to this level, it got so bad my attendance at school was 35%. I started to cut again my mum found out and I went to see a psychiatrist I told her everything, I was paranoid, I found it so hard to talk to people I can't even make eye contact, I cut myself, I have mostly depressive days but some times I can be on such a happy day its almost unreal like I'm invincible(this is what bothers me most, my different moods they are such an extreme difference), my attendence, my confidence which is very low, the fact I worried every hates me and loads more. She said I don't need counselling but she would talk to me as a friend, after 3 trips to her she said well I think your fine now and you don't need to see me anymore. knowing I still self harm, I'm so depressed and all my other problems, nothing changed. Was this right of her?? or do I have problems?
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