Is it rite to feel this/dream this towards yourself?

Question

… that you’d go on the highway.. with a bunch of your friends. Say just going shopping or something, and on the way back you got into a huge car accident. Where only you died (quick and pain less) and your friends in the car never even sustain a scratch (sorta like some movies.)

Yea.. idk why but almost everyday… I have that sort of dream… and sometime when I’m out driving I’d say ohh I hope that car hits mee ext.

Just to let you know some more details… I’m in university just started.. and im juggling full time school, full time studying, full time boyfriend, full time work, full time family, full social life, and I have to admit.. occasional part time partying. Im stressed that I’m gonna flunk school.. which my marks are saying im not.. but im always scared! Even when I know I aced a test!!

Plain and simple.. I really believe that if my life were over.. . I’d all be much much easier!

---ohh and to make matters worse.. someone I’ know and close to my family.. died in a car accident on a highway… this boy just finished university.. and was suppose to get married… great guy… really sad!

p.s- im not suicidal or anything, i know i have alot to live for plus… im the biggest coward you’d ever meet lol… and religion wise I’d be domed to h**l lol.. but anywhoo the only way im leaving this earth is by accident, terminal illness or of age!

--sooo yeah back to my question.. is this rite to think/dream this always… im never gonna talk to anyone about it.. im a very shy girl!!!!!----

Thxxs for your comments/advice in advance!

Answer 1

i know that you have people that care deeply about you. how do you think if you died and deserted them. they will miss and mourn your death. and if you commit suicide, you dont go to heaven. i think it would be selfish to do that to you loved ones

Answer 2

hun u basicly answered ur own question

dreams are made up of our feelings and events taking place in out lives.

the reason its a car accident is because of ur family member.

all of ur friends being there and not getting hurt is because u probably care about ur friends n wouldnt want them to be hurt that is y they walk away unharmed.

why r they there? most likely because ur thinking ur spending to much time with friends and not enough time in ur studies

and y r u getting killed? because u feel stressed and overwelmed and like you said u feel if ur life was over id be much easier so in ur dreams u are dying to get away

u didnt even have to ask this question u answered it all on your own.

just take a deap breath, calm down, try focusing a little more on studies, and if ur allready doing that maybe some temporary anti anxiety medication to help calm ur nerves. ull be fine!!!! i know u will!!!

Answer 3

STRESS...you got to much going on something has to go or you need to cut back on some of the time you spend with, friends, family or the boyfriend because school should be the most important right now.

Answer 4

It's perfectly natural to feel like that, especially since you sound like you have a lot going on. My sister just started university, and she is really nervous and stressed, though she's twenty. However my friend just started college too, and she is very nervous as well. Of course you are going to think it would be easier if it was all, no there any more. A lot of people think that. The main thing is to remember what is left there that you would really miss, (again I'm not suggesting you would "off your self") but just take time to do things that you really enjoy.

Good luck.