well, my dad died when i was 2, he shot himself. my mom started binge drinking after that and when i was 5 she started using heroin. she'd leave me at my grandma's and then she'd go off and get high with various people.
she od'd when i was 11 and died. my grandma got sole custody of me, but it really messed me up. she wasn't that old -- 60, but i could tell she didn't want me around. she was very religious and hated my mother and by extension -- me. when i was 13 i got pregnant. my grandma was mad, but for some reason it totally changed her. i wanted to give it up for adoption, and she was with me 100%. i had a healthy baby boy who was adopted by a loving couple. they send me photos every year and i've seen him a few times. but there was a part of me that longed for my baby. so when i was 16, i asked my boyfriend if i could get pregnant. he said no, but i tricked him (wont go into details but it was mean and gross) and i got pregnant. i was happy, and told my grandma it was an accident and that i wanted to keep it. but i miscarried at 2 months, 3 weeks and a day. after that i got depressed, my boyfriend dumped me and i started cutting.
my grandma was worried about me and ultimatley i got send to an institution. it worked for me, and a year and a half later i was bunch better. i still missed my son and my misscarried baby, but i was no longer depressed. i got my high school diploma at 19, and then i got a degree to be a dental technician. i started working there when i was 20. i had a 1 night stand and it got me pregnant when i was 24. i decided to keep it. the dad i was pissed at me, and he threatened me with a knife. i called the cops and got a restraining order. he didn't obey it and almost killed me. but he got 7 years in jail and i moved across the country. when i was 25, my daughter martine was born. i still worried about her father, and i finally moved us to canada. we are still there.
now martine is 2 1/2, i'm almost 28 and i'm engaged to a great guy. it definently turned around in the end.
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