1)Mood swings as follow:
A) Happy, chill, just around
B) Really happy - cleans obsessively
C) Non-realistic perception of reality (e.g., Thinking asking her to see a d-doc is an insult, and insults me for like 20 minutes without a breath)
D) Gets excessively angry - when there it's just a small reason to be angry. (I had a recent suicide attempt, and I was in mental facility for three weeks. My friend that was an intern of psychology. She taught me a lot about these kind of things, plus I research and learn things because I love to. She can't control her anger. Those things I learned - a lot of coping skills to avoid conflict work most of the time, but sometimes she just still is a ****** for no reason, yet blames EVERYTHING that happens. Anything negative - on me.).
I) So angry sometimes, it scares me.
5) When I have panic attacks - bad ones, I mean - or I'm sick, and I am child-like. Needy, I guess you can say. Then she's the sweetest she every is. I feel like when I turned to a teen, she started this **** with me... She probably has always been.
6) Apathy. Sits. Doesn't speak. Reads. Says she doesn't give a **** about anything.
7) Severely codependent on her husband - whom doesn't live with us for other reasons. But uses him for any and all problems she feels she needs to.... Like if I call her a *****, she calls him to call the cops.... (my breaking point in terms of the suicide attempt that got me in the facility.)
8) Extreme irritability with fatigue - even though for no reason.
9) Irrelevant triggers of anger
10) psychologically, emotionally, and verbally abusive to me.
I thought it was me for a while, but I went to somewhere and learned a lot about conflict coping skills and I'm NOT bringing these on! I wish she would just get help...
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