I asked a question earlier about how to leave my emotionally/verbally abusive husband. Someone posted "think about the kids and get them raised first. Well I been thinking about my kids for several years, I've been sticking it out, trying to make things work, but I have come to a point of hateful resentment. He's a narcissistic perfectionist.
Here's just some examples of what he says to me:
You'd just be living in a trashy trailer park if it wasn't for me.
You've got a big fat ***. (I'm a size 6)
You're so boring all the time.
I don't think you should hang out with your mom, it can't be that fun, and you always get stupid ideas from her.
He belittles everyone in my family, he won't even go to any of my familly get togethers, but expects that I go to all of his family's, anything that I enjoy doing he puts me down, tells me it's worthless and a waste of time (going back to college was one of these).
The tipping point for me was when I asked him to go to a counseling appt. with me and right when we got there, he took a call on his cell phone. I said,"I'll meet you inside, don't be too late," and I went in and waited, and waited and waited. finally I went outside to see WTH and he had driven away. Didn't come back for an hour. That just did it for me. I am so filled with hate and resentment. But, if I dragged him back to the counselor, and he managed to change, could I find it in my heart someway somehow, could I find a way to love him again?
Right now I think No, but What do I know?
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