I know it sounds ridiculous, but I have been super super depressed lately to the point to where I feel like I am going to die. I feel like there is no point in living anymore, and am just super stressed out about a lot of things. I have a lot of girls that are out to get me for know reason, and was tired of always being stuck in the middle of all of their drama bullcrap, so I finally just stopped talking to them. I wasnt rude about it...just told them I needed to focus on other things like school and my husband. They are of course freaking out, cussing me out, and telling me to be honest and that I just don't have the guts and that Im weird.Now, I don't feel safe being here especially without my husband here.
But, Im just super stressed and depressed over this. My husband volunteered to be deployed because we needed the money. Now, I don't even care..its not important, and I wish he never did it. Im the joke of everyone he works with, and they think Im the one who pushed him off and forced him to go. Which is not the case.
My husband is miserable with his job, and hates going there because of all the immature people who can't keep their mouths shut. It's just not worth anything anymore, and we don't know what to do. I wish he could just get out of the military all together, but he still has around 18 months left of his contract....
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