So I'm guessing I've been under a lot of stress lately since that's all I can really point at at this point. I've been having some nightmares, although that's nothing new to me, but they've been pretty fearsome lately.
I had a nightmare last night about a demon. I vaguely remember it, like most nightmares, but it left me uncontrollably/undeniably scared. The demon looked angelic and I do refer to him as a demon because of the things he'd say. He looked angelic because he was wearing a beige, not white, suit and his hair was black, straight, and shoulder length. His characteristics were of a man but not really. All I remember was being taunted by him and his laughter ringing in my ears. I was trying to get away from him by closing my eyes and praying, pretending he wasn't there, but I was so nervous that I kept forgetting the prayer. All the words were coming out wrong and he kept taunting me on how I
'didn't even know the prayers and that I wasn't a true child of the light'. At one point, my family, I specifically remember my mom, were joining me at a dinner and the demon was sitting next to me, obviously invisible to family and he just kept taunting. Louder and louder and I kept trying to pray and somehow my subconscious was hinting me at, if I thought of something hard enough it'd come true, so I started thinking of him as the ocean so he'd just wash away and it actually started working but he wouldn't dissipate completely. I woke up terrified without him actually disappearing and I didn't go back to sleep for hours afraid that I would return to nightmare, as many times I do. I cried and cried uncontrollably of fear. It was the most horrifying experience I'd ever encountered. Could this be an actual demon I was facing or was I facing my inner being?
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