Is this a sign of mental disorder?

Question

its me

i sit and rock back and forth ,my father was schizophrenic and he used to do that alot and i m scared to be like him when i grow up you know how hard life is when you have a parent with mental disease .He died but its catching us always

sometimes when i do that people look at me and it makes me stop but i get annoyed

recantly i m becoming more and more isolated ,any suggestions?and its not good idea to seek for medical help i don't trust them much

they didn't help us when we were just kids facing life everyday with feeling so worthless and defenceless specially when he left mommy,they didn't tell my mother and her family to have mercy on us and not to judge us because that's was not our fault

Answer 1

I am reluctant to answer because I don't want you to feel worse but I don't want to leave you unanswered.  It maybe that rocking is not to do with your fathers disease but that it's just a sort of family habit, many family members share similar mannerisms. It may be that you're absolutely fine but your fears of developing a disease are hindering you.

It is really so hard to say.

There are non-medical organisations you can talk to such as:

Childline: 0800 11 11  who are just there to listen to people who need to be heard (please do not be offended, I do not know how old you are)

Samaritans: 08457 90 90 90

Or if you are not from the UK there are bound to be ones from your home country.

I hope this is of some use to you.  I wish you every luck for the future x

Answer 2

you are NOT schizophrenic, depressed maybe, manic or clinical,

thats for a doctor to decide; as for your lack of trust in doctors

suggests to me that you are a young person with your silly hat on.

now get to the doctors NOW!

Answer 3

My understanding of schizophrenia is that positive symptoms (delusion and/or hallucinations) are required for the diagnosis.  Rocking is self-soothing.  It could be learned, but it may have more to do with depression, fear, anxiety, being discontent.  These things would also explain your isolating as well.  I'm not an expert and am not trying to diagnose you, but based on what you wrote, it sounds more like depression and fear/anxiety over the possibility of getting your father's illness.  There's another thing that seems related, too.  It sounds like you were abused as a child.  That can create a lot of insecurities, self-doubt, low self-esteem, and other consequences.  They could be part of the behavior and have a role in depression if you are feeling depressed.

Although you say that you don't want to seek medical help, I think that's were you will find relief and aide.  The doctors and/or therapist that you'd be seeing are different than the ones you dealt with when you were young.  The whole system is not as you experienced.  Don't deny yourself hope out of a misplaced fear.

Answer 4

first of all don't kill yourself second eat your meds and stop isolating yourself third if you start hearing voices seek medical help and eat yor meds

Answer 5

oh boy.....

Answer 6

Perhaps you sit and rock because you find it soothing and it reminds you of your father.. I think its more a fear you have rather than your fathers illness, try thinking other things and start going out a little more

Answer 7

It's completely possible that you're schizophrenic, it's been proven to be partiarly genetic.

But wait for some other sign before you jump to conclusions, it could just be a learned behavior

Answer 8

maybe you say your father rock back and forth, and your body has mimicked what it saw. rocking back and forth doesn't seem like a mental disorder. it may be something your body does out of habit. or maybe it's just in your genes to rock back and forth from your father.

hope this helped you view another perspective on this. best of luck  

Answer 9

Rocking back and forth is a form of self-comfort.  If this is your only "symptom" I wouldn't worry too much.  However, you don't say how old you are so if you're in your late teens, early 20s and are having other symptoms such as hearing voices I'd seek medical attention.  At the very least, you would benefit from some help with what appears to be some depression.  You're going to have to trust someone in the medical field if you want to feel better.  We're not all bad.

Answer 10

Its not completely un-natural to rock back an forth, thats why they they made rocking chairs right?