I have no problems writing, but when it comes to speaking out loud, I have trouble.
I verbalize decently, but most people think that my speech patterns are "quirky".
Quirky, because I'll occasionally switch the first letters of words. Example: Beanut Putter instead of Peanut Butter, or Winted Tindows instead of Tinted Windows.
When speaking, I often forget how to properly pronounce words. I can hear the words in my head, but they don't come out that way. They sound like made up words, or with extra added letters. I swear on my life that at times I am speaking correctly, but people will tell me that I randomly add in extra words, or displace them.
When verbalizing I lose my trail of thought and find my mind going blank. I find it difficult to explain complex concepts (even jokes are too difficult!), and just give up and say "nevermind"!
Speaking drains me to the point that most of the time, I'd prefer not to speak at all.
In school, spelling words out loud gave me anxiety, it takes me a longer time than most people to visualize the letters and speak them.
It feels like I have a crack somewhere in my thought processing.
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