Is this domestic violence ? [plz read the whole thing including the other link]

Question

Ive been depressed this year. My reputation at school went down the drain , i last over 30 plus pounds, and gained a weak rep at school. Am 15 , dealing with a drug addicted mom, who is not the perfect role model for me.

peopel have seen my waekness, i had emotional outbrust, people know about my sucidal attempts, ppl know about the physical fights that happen at home..and i feel that this year, the guiys in my school have used all of this to thier advanatage..Guys in my school start pinching, shoving, grabbing me..and i fight back, but all that comes with that is more hitting from th em.

am scared for my life right now..& worried about this up coming year.

am so sick of being the vitcum..

I just want to run away from everythign..where i live right now is not doing me justice. I feel like i practically have to raise my self.

I need a mother figure..i dont have anyboady else to live with. And i dont even know who my dad is...

I have a older sister, who see everythign that happenign yet, i feel as if she does'nt care.

this is something else that has happen:

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=ArgXkZFZMdOPtGFAzamvHH7sy6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20080802102616AAMkFub

I been so isolated.., it the only way that i deal with the pain..

my emotions & feelings are all intense.

everywhere i go, am the center of attention..am that person that peole think got it bad, and build thier confidence over.

am that girl that peolpe take advantage of..am do freaking sick of the BS, that is happening..i have no support system..

i can't even get a job, because am only 15, turnign 16 in nov.

I dont thihnk ill ever be happy in highschool.

my rep is just bad, ppl think so negative of me, ant hat's bcuz i have'nt stood up for myself..

Am getting thepay next week for my depression.

I use be to such a smart, happy girl, who did'nt care about other thought. I knew whati wanted, did good in school, cared about what i looked like, but lately..i just dont care anymore.

am use to be such a smart 2 year back, but lately i changing..my mind is clouded, can't seem to think straight..cant hold conversation, been ioslated for a long time now..

any advice?

my step dad treats me badly also...

at times he calls me outside my name, and has even threaten me at one times or another when mom was'nt there..

i never told my mom about this.

i never have any fun..this is my youth years, and i feel like am 30 sumthing.

am a virgin, anly had one relationship whcih last 2 days..i want love, but i refuse to look for it in all the wrong places..but it so hard fighting the odds..

my school consulaer, teacher

Answer 1

I WANT TO JUST GIVE YOU A BIG HUG !

we really need to sit and talk,

school is always tough,

you are not involved with any of the groups,

you don't play the sports,

and you have depression.

I STILL WANT TO GIVE YOU THAT HUG !!

you don't need a boy friend yet,lets work on finding who you are first and getting you through school then we can talk about boys more.

ANOTHER HUG ?

Answer 2

If you are being abused at home in any way you could contact Children Services. It's not always the best life to be in state custody, but they might get you out of your home and you may change to a new school system. I hope everything gets better for you, try calling a Big brothers Big sisters program they usually have no problem giving you support when you need it the most and can have some counselors talk with you too. If you wanna talk to me I would be glad to help in any way possible. I have 3 daughters and would hate for them to feel the way you do right now.  

Answer 3

You need to talk to a grown adult you can trust and fast- coach, teacher, whomever, do you have family members that you trust that are older then u and help you with the situation?  And you need to tell your mother as quickly as possible that you are being threatned.  This is not a game this is serious bizness- please get yourself sum help and happiness- soon.

Answer 4

Sounds like a lot is going on in your life that is causing bad feelings within you.  There are probably lots of things that may help, but the first thing you want to do is be at peace with yourself, your family and your friends.  One way to do that is to buy a book To h**l With h**l.  In there there are answers to many questions that are involved in having inner peace.  It's not a book that tells you to pray, go to church, give money to a church or anything like that.  It deals with everyday life like you are explaining yours.  It helped me tremendously.  Barnes and Noble and Amazon.com.  Get it.  Good luck.