I am 23 years old and for the past 2-3 years i have been having depressive and manic episodes.
When I am depressed, i dont feel like doing doing anything, im sad, hurt, suicidal, angry
When i am manic, i spend money, have ALOT OF s*x, but with my GF only, but ALOT. I am jumpy and always got a flight of ideas but I can concentrate on it. I think really fast and think a lot, zone out often, and always irritated. I also hear some voices when I am in my room alone. Like it would be 3 in the morning and im sitting reading in my room and i would feel the front door opened or my mom and dad are downstairs telling me to come downstairs. When I would check, its nothing there and parents are sleeping. Same thing at school but with friends and stuff, I would think someone is outside calling me from my dorm room, but no one is there.
I also have little bouts of psychosis, for example i sometimes feel like im not here, sorta like depersonalization but not to that extent, kinda like how you feel if you don't sleep for 2 days, but i would start feeling it random, weather im tired or fine.
Now, im overreacting right? This can't be something like bipolar disorder right? Im still young, maybe its one of those teenage things? What could this be?
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