Is this normal? What's wrong with me?

Question

Okay,I'll give the whole history if it'll help. I'm 19 yrs old. I'm 14 weeks pregnant, and I've had depression problems my entire life, since elementary school, not properly diagnosed, but bi-polars been thrown around as an idea and really severe anxiety issues, but the past two years, especially year, its been a lot better, still have the anxiety, but no-where near as bad as before. I've been married for a year, my husband is in the USAF. He just left Wednesday for Iraq for only six months. Havnt spoken to him since Friday. I'm a former military brat, so I'm used to deployments, or so I thought. I moved back in with one of my parents for a few months just so I'm not alone during my 1st pregnancy. Okay, well heres the problem. I'm crying constantly, like I'll be in the middle of just having a normal conversation with someone, and start to tear up, in the middle of working (cashier) and start to get upset. I know he's safe because I would have been notified if something happend by now, but I'm so scared and paranoid that somethings happend to him. I'm having constant anxiety and panic attacks, to the point where I can't breathe, and I can't quit thinking about all of it and crying, its never been this bad in my entire life, feels like everythings just ruined, and terrible, and like my lifes over, and I know its not, but I just can't smile without forcing it, I can barely laugh now, I'm not eating hardly, and puking way more, which is so bad for my baby, all I wanna do is sleep and cry, I feel hopeless. I'm not suicidal or feel like causing myself harm, but I just feel so bad. I love my husband, we have a great marrige, but for some reason I hate him right now, so much for leaving me while I'm pregnant, and I know its not his choice, and I'm proud of him, but I still have the negative feelings and I'm gettig so scared of them, becuase I just love him so much, but I'm so upset all the time. I just don't know whats going on, why I'm feeling this way. I thoug I was prepared for this deployment, I'm used to him leaving for training (he's security forces) and yeah I get upset, but not to this degree. I don't wanna see anyone, or anything. I just, don't wanna even exist. Whats wrong with me? What am I supposed to do? I know this isn't healthy for my pregnancy or me in general. I wanna quit crying. I wanna just be happy and supportive. I just wanna be myself again. Sorry if this didn't make sense, but please, and advice or suggestions would help. And don't just respond saying "suck it up", not what I need to hear, thanks. Sorry this is so long, thanks for reading it

Answer 1

First, im sorry your in this situation in the first place, its got to be difficault.What is probably is thats making you act like is, is your everday depression, the fact that your husbands gone, the stress of being pregnant, and everythings just piled up. You should take atleast 10 minutes a day just to relax. Dont fall asleep, because to much sleep can be harmful too.Think about taking up yoga. By relaxing and being calm, you start to think of these things in a positive manner. If you really are having panic attacks that bad you should think about seeing a doctor, because depending on the place they occur they could be harmful to you and your baby.

Try to smile, it makes you feel better.

and good luck.

Answer 2

remember your also pregnant. so your hormones are all over the place which can cause you to cry easier. try to stick to the positives, or find a hobby .  maybe even see your doctor and tell him/her and they can do something like a shortterm medication. good luck! and i hope he comes back safe :)     - im a army brat too!  

Answer 3

do u have AHAD caused by anxiety?.  

Answer 4

You are a wondeful wife, you are supporting him and yoiu are taking on a baby. It is okay to be sad I will be sad to when I have to leave my girlfriend for boot camp and then iraq. But I will be thinking of her every single day i am there. I garuntee he is doing the exact same thing. He married you and I can tell that you both love each other very much. I am sure if it was up to him he would be with you supporting you and the baby in this time of need. You are very strong. I am so sorry that you are sad alot. I am not here to tell you to "suck it up" because thats not the type of person I am. I am here to tell you that what you are doing is brave. Tell him I thank him for his service. And trust me things will get better. If you need someone to talk to just email. I hope this helped. :)

Answer 5

ooh dang

Answer 6

What you are feeling is perfectly normal. You are pregnant and have all kinds of hormones running around and you are worried about your husband. I can't imagine the stress you are dealing with. I'm afraid the only advice I can give is find someone to talk to, ask a doctor about prozac or similar drug, and that grief/stress is a process. You just have to go through it to feel better. Know there are people who admire you for your courage and strength in being pregnant and a military wife and take it one day at a time. Maybe find a message board for pregnant women or military wives.  

Answer 7

i don,t know i,m 15 years old lol

Answer 8

Why haven't you been diagnosed? You can't just go around saying you have this and that illness. Go to the doctor.

Crying, depression and crazy emotions are all very common in pregnancy, but that doesn't mean it's normal. You need help for it.

Why on earth don't you just go to the doctor  

Answer 9

I AM NOT READING THAT.

d**n it girl.

Its details not a novel.

Answer 10

It's the baby making all these mixed emotions. That's what happens when ur pregnant. Next time you see the doctor for your check up tell him whats goin on and how serious it is and make him do something about. He may want to give you something to increase ur appetite. Good luck hun.