For the past year or a bit more, i've been feeling very uncomfy around ppl, even my closest friends whome im usually comfortable with. I feel very self-conscious sometimes and i cant maintain a long conversation. I’m always thinking that they might be judging me or I’m always worrying about what they might think of what i said or did. I don’t feel so confident all the time like I used to!
Although I can be VERY self confident and feeling comfy some other times, but from time to time after this happens, I begin asking myself again, was I too excited? Did I not pay attention to what i said? Did I offend anybody? and I ruin the confident moment I had! It’s really affecting my self-esteem and affecting my daily productive life, leading me to depression ad laziness!
I’m feeling guilty most of the time, and as for sleeping, I can easily fall asleep, but i can’t STAY asleep for long, specially on my weekend. And if it matters at all, I RARELY have dreams in my sleep!
I sometimes FORCE myself to feel comfy! get myself into situations I’m not comfy with, or force myself to start a conversation that I’m almost certain I can’t maintain, it rarely works, but I still do it...
Is this Social Anxiety Disorder? or what is this and what should i do?
thanx :)
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