hi I'm 17 & ever since I was a little girl every guy that I liked, had a crush on or even dated I would always picture our future together to the fullest extent (meaning marriage, children with them and so on). Up until last year, when I was 16 and lost my virginity to my now EX boyfriend I began thinking in to it so much more to the point where I actually decided on spending the rest of my life with him. I would think of him for hours straight, and it will always be about the futute and marriage. I just felt like I HAD to plan everything and it felt as if I was running out of time. And I didn't know why. Unfortunetly he didn't believe in love and never wanted any part of it and we eventually broke up. Then 6 months later I meet some one new and the same cycle has repeated again. One thing I'm sure of is that I am in love with him and he actually loves me back, but doesn't wanna think of marriage and everything else when I on the other hand already picked out our future kids names! No I'm not crazy but I wonder why I'm like this when all of my friends seem not to be?.. Is it wrong for me to overthink the future that much?...
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