ok im 28 and ive had social anxiety forever. to give u a nutshell i used to take drugs alot, smoke pot, do extacy most weekends for about 2 years but all that has come to an end in the last year. i havent smoked pot for about 4 years, well i should say i havent abused pot for that long, ive had the occasional puff. i recently stopped smoking cigarettes caus i thought this may help and it has definately taken a significant edge off the anxiety levels in social situations. its just bloody rediculous. i just shut down. i am attractive and well presented and when people first meet me i know they expect big things to come from my persona but i just crumble and dieeeeeeeeee haha. its just so annoying and i disapoint myself again and again. "hi my name is patrick ..................................." the dotted line is just sweat, awkward eyes, trembling voice, every face muscle quivers with fear. it makes me angry and i just want to shoot myself sometimes caus i know who i can be. very frustrating. Ive been on anti depresants for last 2 years and 'Avanza' is supposed to help with anxiety. it hasnt. ive tried valium, this stuff does not help my anxiety. ive read every bloody book. is there any medication that i can take so i can feel confident enough to at least practise being in social situations??? give me a break god, its frikken killin meeeeeee! if anyone has been in my situation and come through to the other side and turned into a brilliant social butterfly with absolutely no fear then please tell me what to doooo. btw im off the anti depressants and feel a lot better ironic hey!
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