Ive had thoughts of killing myself..what should i do?

Question

My life is so hard. i'm only 12, and ive had thoughts of killing myself. My friends are getting mad at me just because of rumors, when i didnt do ANYTHING. and they're putting so much pressure on me. My mom is always promising me things, for example letting me hang out with friends, and then she changes her mind last minute, and my friends' parents get mad at ME. my moms always yelling at me and hitting me, and never buys me anything. and my dad and i got in a huge fight, and he forbids me to call him dad. My family is so poor that we might have to move out of our house. Ive been eating so much (i eat when im nervous or really upset) and i've gained so much weight. and my face totally broke out in acne. I dont know what to do, my life just sucks, and it never seems to get ANY better. do you have any advice...?

Answer 1

Please don't!

Is there someone you can talk to,  perhaps a relative or an adult that you're close to?

Have you considered a counselor at school?

The pre-teens are stressful times,  but sweetie,  you will get through this....

Take care of yourself and please pray....God hears the desires of our hearts.

{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}

Answer 2

Please don't! It's so sad the way your parents treat you. I wish I could give you some useful advice, I'm only 13. Go to a counselor. I know that there also is a suicide hotline somewhere. Also go to gurl.com.

http://www.gurl.com/showoff/stories/arti...

1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433).  

Answer 3

i went through depression and thoughts of suicide when i was younger...(i was 12 too)

you just need to talk to someone

i know we don't know each other, but i'll gladly help

email me anytime  

Answer 4

Well idk bout ur friends getting mad at u.  ur life kinda sounds lyk mine. im poor dn things r tite rite now. my parents and i rnt going so great either. im over weight nd my skin is okay.  But dont let urself be so stressed ull b okay. i always stay calm, nd i think im like the tough one in my family although im the youngest. dont let things bother u. nd let ur friends no y u end up not hanging out with them.. i think theyll understand. IM me in an hour at [e-mail] if u wanna chat. but remember just relax nd stay calm ur skin wont break out.  nd luv urself, b obsessed with ur beauty or ur best featers. so if u hav no one else, u at least hav urself

Answer 5

dear sammy ,

slow down , you`re only 12 !  there is so much more out there waiting for you. if you give up now then you`ll never know the future .

your end of school results , your first boyfriend ,your successfull career , your wedding day , your children , seeing the world ,all those parties , a nice home of your own , learning to drive and yor first car , and in years to come , grandchildren ..

childhood is the meanest of all lifes tests, pass this one ,and the world is yours for the taking.

i am "dad " to three children , the eldest being the same age as you,

yes , we do argue but at the end of the day ,family is family, and we make it a point to be open with each other.

i so hope this can work for you.

very best wishes ,sammy, you`re worth it !!

tony.d

Answer 6

Many people go through this. You may not know them, but they do exist.

DONT Do it. Think about it this way. You have stated all of the negative aspects of your life. TRY to think about your positives. Once you get started, sometimes its hard to stop. Try and laughing a little (i.e. watching comedy, hearing jokes,...etc.) At least something to cheer you up.

One thing I always do personally is listen to some music. Whether it be to get me in a better mood or just let my brain relax from the outside world, I still feel a connection sometimes.

You are 12, so that would be middle school right? SOOO many rumors fly around middle school. It comes to a point where you say, "WTF where did this come from??" I used to let it bother me when I was in middle school 5 years ago. When I moved to a new school, kids first thought I smoked weed! Then another rumor flew around that I was g*y because I had 1 close friend who I'd play basketball with. I GOT FURIOUS! But I realized the trick pretty soon. The trick is to not let rumors bother you considering 95% of them are untrue. And if you're friends get mad at you for them, who is to say they are really you're friends? They may question you, but in the end they should realize the truth behind it all! Not get angry!

With your mom, my dad used to do the same thing and still does. What I do is try to get the plans set up super early and let both my parents know ASAP about my plans with friends.

And I think you should let things cool off a bit with your parents. Avoid confrontation at all costs. LISTEN to your parents. I can't stress that enough. Material possessions will come in time when things get better. And trust me they will!

Poverty is hard to deal with. I can't say I've completely dealt with full blown poverty but my parents have always lagged behind when it came to getting me material possessions. Like 2 year lags.

Replace eating with something productive! Anything! Writing, reading, drawing, playing sports, etc. There are many things to do. Even as simple as playing ball with yourself or the wall. Acne can be controlled. Something as simple as washing your face before you sleep AND when you wake up can prevent many pimples. If you can, purchase a daily face wash. And keep with it. I use mine after I get out of the shower. Brands such as Neutrogena or Clearasil are good. Oh and NEVER pick those pimples, more will come.

I know this seems like a lotttt to take in at once. Just remember, take things step by step. Start with working out home issues and move to more important matters. Baby steps. You'll make it, many have already, who says you can't.

Good Luck.

I know I am a total stranger but if you ever feel like talking, just email me [e-mail]

Answer 7

I'm so sorry hon.  Just know it WILL get better.  I grew up in a situation similar to yours (except I hardly had any friends), and most people are envious of my life now, believe it or not.

Hang in there.