My best friend in the entire world has two best friends, but i am insanely jealous of the other one. Her best friend is gorgeous, she's hilarious, she's outgoing and courageous, and is just amazing according to my bestie. It just annoys me because i am outgoing and funny and courageous when i'm with my friends, but i come off shy when i meet people, and she's not. She has known her other friend longer, and they always talk about inside jokes that im never apart of. We rarely all hang out, but we did recently and i wanted to cry i was excluded from everything and they were laughing and skipping around and being funny and all my friend kept saying was OMG I LOVE YOU and i was just standing there as if i didnt exist. Normally if i want to be included im good at it and just be myself and have fun, but around them i just get depressed and feel like ill burst out into tears at any second, because they talk about how they are bffs and its almost... mean. My BFF was with me and we were looking at pictures of her friend (i didnt want to) and she was like ughh i love this girl shes my LIFE. and shes always talking about her friend. She tells me im her best friend but then shes like Remi is literally my BEST friend. (remi is her friend) and im jealous of Remi in every possible way, she is actually STUNNING and ugh. I try and tell her how i feel, but she doesnt get it. I went to a new school last year(which is how i met my friend) and i lost a lot of my other best friends, and i have trust issues (i dont want to explain why) so its hard for me to not be jealous when i only have one best friend, and i cant trust people. Please give me advice i need help i cant go on with this for the rest of middle and high school!
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