I know its not the right section, if you've ever been bullied plz tel me how you recovered?
Hey plz make sence of this for me. ok i was bullied in primary school, not too sure why.?
it felt like my fault anyway. now ive finished, high school and college, both of which were h**l. in school i was fine except one "friend" who would tel me off constantly and keep putting me down seemed to everyone else as a nice person and if ever i said anything to her i was thought of as the one being awkward. evan now if i ever see her around i feel intimidated by her to the extent that i feel depressed all day, sometimes for longer. any way.. in college i was an easy target for people, if they had no one to pick on it would be me. it seemed as though they used me as a conversation starting point to sort of have a ***** bond between them. i became very quiet in college and have stayed so ever since i cant say anything mean to anyone even for revenge incase i make someone feel the way that i do. so people can get away with pretty much anything they do to me. why am i a target like this?
i am 21 now not a kid anymore. but can be intimidated by a 16 year old girl and she takes full advantage of it. she can make sure i dont turn up to a gathering within our community. i dont socialise at all anymore i only talk to people in my family that i have known since i was born. all of this i s influencing my behaviour so much. i easily get angry, never forgive anyone for evan the smallest of things. and generally feel depressed though i can put on a non depressed front on most of the time now as i have grown up with this feeling. it is severely affecting my life, i dropped out of university because of this and now wont even get a job. please help me.
i realise i just need to move on from my past but along with that i need a new frame of mind other wise ill be in the same situation over and over as i have been in the past. what can i do to sort this?
i dont really want counselling it'll probably go down as im a psycho or something and im not!!! i dont want it on my record at all.
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