Lil ***** of a[step]uncle of mine called me a hump&dump...&my aunt has no idea =[ we r keeping so much her=[?

Question

i wanted 2 tell him everything...but i just cant now. i've loved him since i was 13,hummm no1 knows no1 will ever kno. me in his arms is all i think about anymore,all i want anymore is just for him 2 hold me and never let go. when im around him i just want time 2 stop. thinking about so many things these past 5yrs that have been h**l without him. there just seems 2 b so much bad in this....i mean there is a age diff.(but i dont care about the whole age thing)...but he is also married and 2 make that worse he is married 2 my aunt. no1 can ever kno about how i feel about him,i cant even tell him 4 crying out loud,but i want 2 tell him...heck my aunt already said that when she leaves him i can have him...honestly i LOVED the sound of that...i just dont kno what 2 do. he sees me as this awful gurl that wants 2 ruin his life and thats just so not what i want...just so many things ppl so dont kno...(like after a few weeks of not being able 2 see him i got 2 where i had thoughts of killing myself......i've even tried 2 kill my self a few times...i've been like that these whole 5yrs and when i wasnt thinking about killing my self i would b thiking about something else which i am more then 100% sure that with the way things r right now that WONT happen) telling me 2day that we can only b friends and that i need a guy my age....well with the way i feel for him that friends thing isnt going 2 work(i should kno i've tried that with cj...didnt work) and a guy my age...PLZ dude i like older guys 4 some reason...and he is the only guy i really trust.....but i some how cant trust him with my heart nor my feelings 4 him. i just cant believe he sees me as that lil gurl that stayed by his side...i've so changed but these past 5yrs my feelings 4 him have changed as well...THEY R STRONGER.....BIG TIME!!!

i want 2 b able 2 tell him....but HOW?

man i wish he would get a clue.....y does he think im keeping what happened 4m my aunt.....i mean like duh there isnt much my aunt doesnt kno about me lol

im just scared that when ever he does die that he wont kno and that would really suck...

this sounds REALLY bad i kno...thats y i havent told any1...i mean if the truth came out about how i feel 4 him then everything would come out...

and i dont think ppl want 2 kno that im so glad he was the 1 that gave me my 1st kiss....there is 2 other things that i want him 2 b the 1st 2 do as well BUT.....i just cant even tell him =[

im just gald he still makes me laugh =] but sometimes even that hurts =[

Answer 1

Well, not to be mean or anything, but no wonder your uncle called you a hum and dump; you have some serious issues and what you need to do is get some help.  

Answer 2

Stop being so melodramatic...you were just in love with a 12 year old.  Now this week you are in love with your aunts husband.  You are disgusting...you aunt took you in when no one else wanted you and this is how you repay her?  

Maybe you should try harder next time on your suicide attempt  

Answer 3

your gross that's your aunts husband even if she does leave him have you no morals and respect for yourself from your story i can see why he thinks your ruining his life your a psycho and you are acting like a child everything he told you was right grow up  

Answer 4

you seem confused. You should remember family (even by marriage) is sacrosanct, and you should get yourself a boyfriend closer to your own age group. You may think you love your (step)uncle, but most likely you are confusing family love with the sexual kind. Get yourself a boyfriend near your own age. A grown (and married) man should not be your first time. It was wrong of him to give you your first kiss, he should've known better.