Loss and indirect Rejection

Question

I keep on having this dream...or better yet

I keep on having this continuous theme in my dream of being lost, overlooked by the one I desire, and ultimately rejected.

I'm pretty sure this all stems from my feelings towards a guy I met through my best friend.

At the beginning, being my chicken ****, masked by cocky self, I kept on rejecting his advances (through the phone)

And when I met him for the first time....I fell for Ray...a lonely neurotic screen writer

lol, who's like 9 yrs older than me.

While we were chatting in his livingroom....melting in his sunken couch from the heat that day.....I was hit by sadness.

I noticed how easily conversations flowed between him and my best friend. Then again, they've known each other for 2 yrs. He was very gentleman-like but quiet at the same time...don't know if he likes me or not.

Its hard to tell with moody people.

He did say I looked "s**y" throwing darts (in his game room)

The reality is

I'm jealous of my best friends witt, and lack of shyness.

I am the opposite of her......insecure, fearful, overly shy, not as brilliant, etc...

She's admitted to liking him.

Although that can bother me, I'm sadly comforted by the fact that she's probably not Ray's type, due to her weight problem/plain looks....this is where I benefit, big time.

Her flaws might give me an opportunity.

I know....How horribly superficial of me.

its true.

besides me blabbering about...What can the dreams mean?

Answer 1

your dream is from you feeling that you aren't good enough.

and that no matter what you try to do you always seem to get the short end of the stick.

the rejection you are dreaming could have come from something that happened to you that you have chosen to block out.

and that your mind is trying to bring it your attention.

being jealous of what your friends have is common when you feel like your not good enough.

you feel that if you only had what they have or looked like they looked that you would be happy and fulfilled. but you won't until you find out what happened to you..

to make you feel that you are not worth to be loved and valued.