I keep searching for that girl/woman. I've had a few relations so far, with a few beautiful and inner rich souls but I wasn't fully happy. Nor were they so we preferred to be honest and keep looking for the best possibility.
Mine is not the best in terms of comparison with other people. No. It is just the best FOR ME.
I've tried and tried searching in the real world and on dating websites and what not. I've found unique profiles and very nice people. But my heart did not say "That's it!". Somebody said that I'm still too young and have lots of years ahead. But that's not a comfort at all! I'm 28 already! If I miss these years, my best ones, what's the point? To find true love when I'm past 80?? Even then I guess it would mean I haven't lived for nothing. But still, why? It isn' fair!
I feel I am not wrong considering life is useless without sharing it with the twin soul. Perhaps just in my case. I am okay if other people find satisfaction in their career, creation, projects, culture, art etc. But I feel totally empty and that life has almost no meaning in her absence. I don't want to live like this for decades!!!
I am not pretentious at all, on the contrary. I'll post this link on my profile so you understand me better and form an accurate image.
http://www.okcupid.com/profile/templarjedi
I also strongly recommend those interested women to take my test (easy to find on my profile page - TESTS).
I was even thinking: How many single women are there in the world? Okay, filtering, how many would I be very compatible with, from all points of view? I guess it's still a large number, isn't it? Of course, probably she is one of them. She, the perfect match. But what if she does not exist or was never born? I fall into despair again...
Please, tell me what you think. Please view my profile and if somehow you meet a she alike whenever in your life... a friend or a relative or a friend's friend or anybody you come across... would you please tell her about me? You would do me the greatest favor possible and for that I thank you from all my heart! I'll have no other thing to offer but the radiating joy emanating from my heart. Wouldn't be the universe a better place?
Thank you for reading, for understanding, for everything.
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