well anyone can answer really ... but i think i'd like to get answers from my contacts or McR fans ..
ok so i had this dream ... i was at my friend's church and this guy walks in .. he has like blak emo-ish hair and black clothes ... apparently he just started coming to their church cuz his life was a wreck and he though God could help him ... so after church he comes up to me and starts talking to me .. he's wearing all black and i happen to be wearing this amish black skirt and my fav black jacket ... well i find out that we both like the same bands and books and movies .. so he starts coming to my church and we spend a lot of time together talking about books we read and we lend each other books and CDs and stuff ... well one day he gives me this book on people with schizophrenia ... and before he would give me like novels so i was confused ... well i read the book ... and i'm gonna give it back to him at this park where we're meeting ... and as we're walking he tells me that he hears voices in his head .. and that he has schizophrenia and the zen gods tell him to do crazy things ... well i didn't really know what to do so i just hugged him and told him that if he ever needed anything he just had to talk to me and i told him to keep praying and that God would help him ... so like weeks go by and i haven't heard from him at ALL .. like no phone calls, no text messages, no IMs ... NOTHING .. so i start freaking out and i ask my friend what happened to him and she said he went to a mental hospital .... so like a looong time goes by and then i get a letter form him telling me to meet him at this chinese restaurant(it must have been chinese cuz i ordered fried rice) well this restaurant is connected to a rehab .... so i go meet him and we start talking kind of akwardly ... oh yeah and like whenever we would meet i would bring my dog cuz we both love dogs ... well anyways we talk politely for awhile ... and then quietly he says "the zen gods have been talking to me again" and i'm freaked out and i said "what did the say ?" and he said "i can't tell you..." and i keep prying him until finally he says he has to do some stuff which i won't name here but it involves me and my dog dying ... so i was just quiet for a bit (by now i'm faaar gone for this guy cuz he's way sweet etc...)and he's staring at me .. and then i'm like "Well What does GOD say ..not the zen gods .. the REAL God .." and he like blew up and started yelling about how he didn't want to kill me but he had to or he'd be tormented for eternity ... and i think something happens where we both get locked away in a mental asylum ...
now i LOVED that dream .. i always think of it ... but it's really weird ... cuz my favorite song on my iPod has always been "schizophrenia" by the wedding like even before i had this dream .. i'm thinking of a music video for it (about vampires) and like i recently read this story in RD about this girl who;s bf was a schizophrenic and he heard the zen gods and they told him hid gf was not loyal and so he'd beat her up and tie her ....
and i don't know ... it's freaking me out ... do you think this dream means something ? i mean it was in color because the table cloths at the restaurant were turquoise and in the beginning of the dream the grass outside the church was green ...
i'd just like your guys' opinion ....
thanks :)
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