I hung out with him again tonight and still couldn't tell him. So, I drafted a letter. What do you all think of this?
God darn it, "Joe". Of all the things we’ve been through together, and all the things we’ve talked for hours on end about, I just can’t seem to get these words out of my mouth: “I want you.†I’ve wanted you every time you’ve been between girlfriends and for several months into your relationships with other girls. You were talking tonight about Darcy’s booty call and you confirmed what I was already thinking about how to bring my thoughts up. You prefer to be the chaser, and not the chased.
You know both of our families are trying to hook us up. And I can’t help to think that maybe there’s something to their reasoning. We get along so well. We complement each other in ways that I have trouble describing to others. We even have that weird ESP thing going on. You bring out the communicator in me and I think I bring you down to earth when you get a little dreamy.
I rented When Harry Met Sally the other night to get some ideas and inspiration but it was to no avail. I’ve spent countless hours thinking whether this would ruin the most amazing friendship that anyone could ever wish for. I’ve come to the conclusion that we have something that has endured and will continue to endure throughout the years to come. So, I don’t fear losing you as a friend. Our relationship is stronger than that. You confirmed that tonight when you let me into your brain to see what’s going on up there. You were the furthest thing from a burden to me tonight. Like I said, I am so honored that you would trust and value my opinions enough to take them to heart. In fact, I’m tearing up a little bit right now because I’m so flattered.
The one thing that I did get from the movie as an idea was the last scene when Harry tells Sally all of the things he loves about her. And I formulated my own list for you:
Ó I love the way your nose is a little crooked.
Ó I love that you have always accepted me for me.
Ó I love your hugs.
Ó I love your shell necklaces.
Ó I love that you are a dreamer because you encourage me to dream more.
Ó I love your faux-halk and all of the different beards you’ve gone through.
Ó I love your dirty, gaffer hands.
Ó I love that you’re a little quirky just like me.
Ó I love the way you are with kids.
Ó I love that your house has some clutter… it makes it feel homey.
Ó I love how you’re constantly trying to better yourself.
"Joe", do you remember the time at the lunch table ten years ago in the Senior Caf when we agreed to get married if neither of us were when we turned 30? We’re getting close to that and I sure would love to see if our High School dreams might actually be what you and I both need. I long to have someone who will take care of me as much as I take care of them. And I know you. I know how great you are at that. You’re so great at caring for others and you’re slowly but surely letting me in to take care of you a little bit. Tearing up again….
When you hug me, my body is electrified. The last few times I spent the night with my ex, I couldn’t stop thinking of you. That is how I knew that you were right about missing out on something great by hanging around with someone who just doesn’t do it for me anymore.
We’ve been friends for so long and some people think that there’s this imaginary line that you cross where there is no turning back on taking the friendship to a romantic level. I used to believe that. But now I am beginning to see how good friends would make the perfect team/couple. Do you agree?
Your sister asked me if I thought of you in this way and, given the size of her mouth, God love her, I said that I wouldn’t mind dating you. But I tried not to make a big deal out of it. The other day, she told me that you said something along the lines of, “if Sally and I are going to get together, it will come naturally and not because Sally has already passed the sister test.†I don’t know what was actually said. But that was the story I got. Haha.
I want you to take your time and be single for a while, if you want. However, I want you to know that I want you in my life on a more consistent basis. I wanted to wait a little longer to tell you this because I truly want you to have that time, if you really need it. But I can’t wait any longer because I can tell you want someone special in your life. And I want to be that someone.
The way I see it, we both want the same things right now. We want to work on our careers for a while, find a strong relationship that would be conducive to raising children. Neither of us are in this life completely for money. We both want to be successful at helping others, love a much as we can, and own a place that we can call our own.
I won’t be able to bear seeing you with another girl, again, if I did not take this chance to tell you my feelings. I hope that we think enough alike so that this doesn’t all come as a complete surprise to you. I h
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