I was diagnosed with a chemical imbalance, specifically a fluctuation of serotonin resulting in periodic spells of depression. As a teen it had a great effect on my life and I was prescribed medication which never really helped. I've been through some really tough times in my life, but self medicated with illegal drugs, etc.
Now 23, completely sober, and starting a family I'm having a hard time. My fiance(pregnant) and I are struggling financially, digging ourselves out of a rut. Staying with family, we don't really have privacy. She's become very distant, stressed, and lacks affection, intimacy, etc.
Through these hard times I want to be able to hold her close and tell her "I love you & it'll be ok". When we fight I have a hard time giving her space. I just want her to know I love her and we'll get through it, but with all the stress & hormones her reactions make me feel worthless.
Again, I know I need to just give her space sometimes, but I'm tormented and hurt tremendously when I tell her "I'm sorry, I know you're angry, but I love you" and she says stuff like "no you don't". From there I go crazy, breaking down, anxiety attacks, etc. And all that does is make it worse.
I need to know if this is normal, should I seek counseling, medication? I'm a very sensitive guy, so this is killing me. She's my whole world, and I need a light at the end of the tunnel.
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