Someone please give advice about what I should do here..
I'm not going to type the entire story about what happened because it's LONG. However, myself and my husband have had lots of problems with his mother our entire relationship (only 3 1/2 years.) Before you get the wrong idea we have ALWAYS respected her and never treated her badly -- just stood our ground with what we knew was right about raising our son. Needless to say, about a month and a half ago we stopped speaking to her, period. She said some EXTREMELY hurtful things to the both of us in an e-mail. About 2 weeks into this, she called my husband and apologized, then invited him over. He said that he wasn't going to come over without me and that she owed me an apology as well. She said "I know.. I will apologize to her I'll just give her a couple days."
2 1/2 weeks go by. He has not seen his mother, and has only talked to her a couple of times for about 2 minutes each call. She texted me today, asking me to call her when I was done work. My husband and I knew that this meant she was going to apologize. I didn't want to talk to her, I'm still very upset (she has caused us a LOT of grief...) but I knew that the mature thing to do would be to call her and listen to her apology, and at least thank her for it.
I call her back. This was our conversation:
Her: "Hello." (Bad tone of voice.)
Me: "Hey, sorry I couldn't call earlier I was working late..."
Her: "That's fine, I just wanted to say I'm glad we're talking again, I missed talking to you."
Me: "Yeah.." (thinking this is a liason into an apology..)
Her: "Now that that's out of the way... Dave (her husband) and I are going up to the beach..."
etc etc etc. Her voice IMMEDIATLEY got all chipper now that that was "out of the way" and she just started rambling on like she always does, being all fake with me. I made an excuse about 2 minutes in and said I had to go. She invited us to dinner next week, I said I'd let her know and hung up.
My husband and I are both BAFFLED and HURT that she didn't apologize to me and is trying to skirt this over. I feel like she only wants to even TRY to skirt things over with me so she can have her relationship with her son back. What do we do?!? Neither of us want to pretend like nothing happened, because we both feel I am owed an apology and she shouldn't get away with how she treated me.
He wants to confront her. However, I feel like if we do, she will apologize fakely, even though she doesn't mean it, just so that my husband will be okay with her. I'm scared to confront her, and I don't want to ask for an apology. I feel like if she wanted to apologize she would have by now, and CERTAINLY wouldn't be just brushing it off like she did.
I wanted to e-mail her and just explain that I'm uncomfortable with the situation and will not be coming to dinner. He said that if I'm going to say anything to her at all I should call her and say it, or he will do it for me but no e-mail. I'm scared to DEATH of the confrontation by calling her.
I also feel like if we have to say anything to her that any apology I get (if I even get one) will be fake. That's not acceptable to me, and I'm just really not wanting to be okay with her right now. I don't want to be all buddy buddy with her and I don't want to go hang out at her house and be all social and c**p.. I'm just not comfortable. She was a constant stress factor in my life and I don't know how to deal with the situation. I don't want to put a wall up between myself and my husband over this though.. that's by far the most important thing to me in this situation.
He said he backs me no matter what I decide to do, but I worry that eventually this will cause a hole to be found in our relationship and our marriage will suffer for it if I don't just forgive her.. but I feel like I can't get all close with her again because of the stress it puts on me. Literally it's so bad that when she calls I shake and I get all upset and nervous to even pick up the phone! (My husband also gets very stressed by her.. it's rough.) He did say that if we could never get along he would always feel a sadness inside and he wouldn't be happy, but he doesn't want me to just fake it with her for his sake.. he wants me to do what makes me happy.
Please give me advice!! And once again, sorry it's so long. :( I just don't want issues in my marriage because I can't get along with his Mom!!
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