I hate psychoanalyzing myself because I believe that we're all a little crazy if we dig deep enough (I guess my intention is to see if I'm crazy or not and not necessarily if everything I do might attribute to positive deviance).
But recently, I've been reading up on alogia and at first I thought I might've had it--after moving from Miami to Flagstaff--but now I'm convinced that I have selective alogia and the full-blown opposite of alogia when I'm around people who are more pragmatic, neurotic or suffering from ADD. I mean, I only find diagnosing myself with alogia when I'm around more...Westernized people. I was raised in Miami so, I guess, speech constructs don't rank as high as the meaning that's being attempted at...try understanding sarcasm between agressive creole-laden english, patois, cuban-accented rhetoric vs venezuelan, ebonics, etc etc etc and you get the idea.
You see, my dad was a stoner and my mom is random (albeit extremely productful; she runs a plant of 500). Plus, we're Filipino so being loud and empathetic is natural. And as an immigrant family, we're particularly sharp at recognizing the contrast between social norms (and doubly so around a dozen or so large minority groups). At home, I've been raised to enjoy and engage in conversations that jump between Tagalog and English highlighted with really random (but insightful) topics that are subject to tangent at a whim.
Anyways, I've moved to rural Flagstaff (and Akron, Ohio soon) and I find myself at odds in conversing with...more Westernized/(laid-back?) people. Right now, I'm compelled to diagnose myself with a Western ailment (hence learning about Alogia in the first place) just to get back into the socializing groove...we are social beings after all, independent is great but I can't build a bridge without somone on the other side. I'm pretty sure the simple answer to this dilemma would be to just keep up with conversing/socializing with people but it's frustrating. Any suggestions?
BTW, I'm 20 but only wrote formally for educational purposes. With contemporaries, I'm used to speaking ghetto but I know its a bad habit if I plan on making millions (unless I become famous or something). I'm taking a break from college and am realizing my brain is wired for urban life but I'm stuck here on top of a large chunk of rock.
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