I've been struggling with having "muted emotions".. meaning, I don't feel very much emotion.
This is most likely a result of my teen years, I lived apart from my family, and generally apart from adults from the time I was 14 on in a reform school. It was a pretty horrible situation, and after about 2 years there I just sort of stopped feeling emotions.
After I got saved, this got significantly better, but I still struggle with this, especially when I "sin-binge" and grieve the holy spirit.. I just feel rather dead emotionally.. I can feel things, but like I said.. the emotions are muted.
I'm not going to a therapist to deal with this, because a lot of the abuse at this school occurred in therapy.. I was brainwashed to believe that I had been abused as a child, my therapist used bizarre methods on me that caused me a lot of distress...
so, is this described in Scripture? Or does anyone else struggle with this?
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