i posted this yesterday its on like page 30 now, I'm after more insight
i have a friend who has a sister who has started at our school this year. When first introduced on the first day of school this year i said hi, was polite and thought nothing of her then she was placed in my home room and for the first week i didn't even know which one she was. as the first week of the 2008 school year passed i noticed her looking at me quite a bit and thought maybe she'd developed a crush on me which i thought was cute. one night as i walking to get the train home i was met by my friend and his sister (the girl) and i properly spoke to her for the first time. Her mother goes to my mum's work sometimes and one night my mum came home telling me the girls mum came in and spoke non stop about me and things me and the girl do at school which made me think that the girl must go home and speak about me. after a few weeks me and the girl starting speaking everyday and for she started catching the train with me and her brother and a friendship beetween us began to blossom and at times seemed like she would find almost any excuse to talk to me although this was only when her brother was around in home room we did speak but she was a bit stand offish still as time went on she began to feel more comfortable around me and we got closer (physically) she would walk really close to me and things got gradually closer and closer like she always whispers things to me and stuff. As the situation stands right now i speak to her everyday i speak to her online, i dont even wait for her brother after school we just walk ahead without him and i must admit im becoming fond of her in home room now we sometimes sit face to face across my desk and only speak to each other. Im not attracted to her but i just want to be around her and i get upset if she dosent speak to me i cant make a move beacause there is a an age difference of 4 years i know that sounds so wrong but from what i've written can you blame me she has given so much flattering attention how could i not feel something back like i said im not going to be inapropriate and make a move because i cant i just dont know if i should tell her what i feel and its bothering me not being able to say it because if she was older i would have no problem telling her. if your just going to tell me im sick or something dont bother beacause there is nothing you can say that i havent already thought.
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