I hated my life. Hated the college I just graduated from a year ago, never wanted to even go to college and never adjusted to college life. I was the fat really unhappy kid in high school. I think I had an eating disorder, actually I know I had an eating disorder, I exercised too much, didn't eat right, didn't have fun. I'm an idiot and my over exercise and S****y eating made me really lethargic. Ended up s******g over my grades. I worked my *** off for the final two years of school and graduated. My senior year of school I got my heart broken big time cause I am an idiot. But for some reason rather than willow in despair I took up mixed martial arts which I am really good at for some weird reason and fell in love with life again.
Fast forward to this summer, yeah I had a rocky past couple of months by getting mono and being sick. But the girl who broke my heart has come back seemingly wanting to be with me. I ignored her and will continue to ignore her. I thought she was the one for me for the longest time. All of a sudden I feel at peace and ready to move on with what I have wanted to do since I graduated high school, and focused my life towards, joining the marines and going into infantry.
Why the h**l do I feel at peace now? Maybe it's cause I was fished out of the ocean by the coast guard a few months ago and I would have died if I didn't have my cellular phone on me (which I never carry in the water) and I realize that I'm not going to die due to drowning.
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