I don't want to sound selfish with this but please read this:
So my younger brother is not yet 10 but he has XXY. It's a chromosome disorder, in which he has a bonus chromosome. This results in numerous problems. He had speech delays, he still has some learning disabilities,infertility,social problems, ADHD, and he has some temper/jealousy issues when it comes to me...
Since I'm his big sister by a few years, I always try not to pick fights with him. I just say "okay bud" and walk away. it's embarassing though because sometime's in public he makes big scenes about how he wants something or he is mad about something. if he wants a piece of gum he'll shout for it, and not even realize we are in a very silent place, and this creates an embarassing situation. He also cries in public and gets aggressive, with me in particular. I try to be the bigger person but occasionally i'll yell back, "shut up!" my mom gets very mad at me.
She tells me, "he has problems. you need to be the bigger person and grow up." When she tells me this, I feel like crying. I feel like I'm acting immature, I feel embarassed for flipping out. I feel bad for my brother and sadly, myself. I don't know how to deal with this situation anymore. I feel depressed. Not to mention, my parents put a lot of stress on me to do well in school. They focus on me, like I'm their only chance. I feel so much pressure to be perfectly mature at my tender age of 14. I feel like they want me to suddenly take on a 30 year old's body & act that way. It's a horrible feeling.
I feel horrible for my brother. I know he struggles in school; in particular making new friends, and keeping focused to get good grades. yet I wish there was a way that my parents wouldn't 'baby' him quite as much, and 'beat' me up emotionally.
thanks for reading. i appreciate any answers.
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