My child hood was bad?

Question

I am 28 years old. I have such a low self esteem. I hate myself, the way I look. Pretty much everything. I blame it on my child hood. I was always over weight and tall. I always got made fun of, called names. I would go home and my mom and dad didn't really help me. My dad the worst. He seemed to be on the other kids sides and go along with them. My brother Was always the perfect one. I got blamed for everything. I found out later in my life that my dad did drugs and went to alult store and did a lot of that stuff. I really think my mom was depressed cause of my dad. They are divorced for years now. My dad won't even be in the same room as her. I hate my child hood. I would not be this way. I guess what I'm trying to say is All that c**p in the past still lingers with me today! I want help for myself to make me feel good about myself no matter what to see that I am something. Where would I go for help to understand myself and my past.

Answer 1

I think you should go to a therapist.  He/she will help you get through your wounds from childhood.  Also, think positive about yourself, and remember, beauty is only skin deep.

Answer 2

There is a book by Dr. Layra Schlessinger called "Bad Childhood, Good Life" and maybe that can give you some pointers.

And I know this sounds corny but focus on the good in your life. Even if it's just day to day, and little things.

WHat are you good at? What do you like to do, what makes you laugh and smile. Do it more boost your spirits. Keep this good feeling in your mind and try to achieve it with your imagination when things aren't going great, or you feel downin the dumps.

Also try to smile more. Make it as genuine as you can.

Answer 3

go see a therapist build a bridge and get over it. Lots of peoples childhood sucked but ya dont see the, wallowing in pity for themselves find someone to talk to whose not on the internet and go be happy.

Answer 4

Well, it is a very positive accomplishment for you to acknowledge the root of your problem. Now, when you know where it come from, try to fix it. As you have realized, it is not your fault you are who you are at present. Today, you have an option of becoming someone completely new. Try not to dwell on your past, believe in yourself, go get a total makeover, change your hair, makeup, style. Advance yourself in education by taking night classes and change your job. Reinvent yourself. No psychologist will do it for you. Good luck!  

Answer 5

my child hood was very bad. the fact, that pig (the mom of my father)

, it tried to kill me, for a little money, the family I lived was very poor, if I died, then it can get a few more bucks from it's son.  I was in hospital when I was a few month old.

I tell the truth. I wish it stay in the h**l for a long time.

Answer 6

easy go to a proffesional, you won't be able to change the fact that what happened to you hurts but they can help you deal with how it is effecting your present. Also write about it, start a journal if you haven't already. Getting it all out in the open and venting about it helps a lot on those down days.

I feel your pain, I had a rotten childhood like you and we share a lot of the same charactoristics psychologically and through the environment in which we grew up. My heart goes out to you I hope you find something to help .

Answer 7

God can heal you and make u brand new if u turn to him

Answer 8

I personally think you should turn it over to GOD,and move on.You sound like an intelligent person,so I ask you this-are you improving your life by hanging on to these feelings,and if not you need to start a new.Ask GOD to give you peace,if you have not accepted Christ,go to him in prayer and he can help you live a new life inside and out-he did for me.GOD-bless