Let me start by saying this pregnancy was planned. My fiance even talked me into it. One day, literally out of the blue, he says that things are different. That we argue (which we really never have, we always had that fairy tale kind of life), that I don't appreciate him, that we are just both different now. I tried to explain that I am pregnant and that my hormones will definitely make me seem different and he says things aren't that simple. I asked him what more I can do to show him that I appreciate him. I've told him countless times that I appreciate everything he does for me, I cook for him all the time, I offer massages even though I even hurt from being pregnant. He has been saying some of the harshest things, like he isn't afraid to lose me, that he doesn't want his child to know him, just super mean stuff. This has been going on for almost three weeks now. His family and friends and myself never saw this coming and don't know why he's acting like this. I've had to go to the hospital twice for pre-term labor. The last time I was there he went with me, but was texting or falling asleep through my contractions and when I needed him the most.
I just don't know what I am supposed to do anymore. He says have faith that things will work out for us, that he does want to be with me, that he truly does love me.
I know he's probably just afraid, give him time and space. But, this baby is coming and more than likely will be coming early.
I know I should call child support since he broke up with me. I should get my name off of our apartment lease and all the bills in his name since he doesn't want me living there.
I just feel really stuck. And I don't want to be a single mother, but I want to be strong for my child. My child can't have two parents that are cowards. But, everyday that I will look at him I will see my fiance and cry.
Sorry it's so long.
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