The man I've been madly in love with for 5 years now told me last week that he cheated on me recently. I know I can forgive him and want to move on with our relationship. The thought of him cheating is very hard on me and he gave me some much needed space this past week. But, ever since I began showing signs of acceptance, all I hear about is how he thinks he has symptoms of HIV. He's already been tested for other STDs which all showed negative. By the sound of the woman he had a one night stand with, I highly doubt that she is infected with HIV especially since she didn't give him any other STD. I am really trying to come to terms with the reality of the situation and thought I was handling it very well. Instead of giving me credit for that, he is creating a much larger mess. Is he doing this to sabotage my trying to keep our relationship together or because he can't cope with the guilt that he feels, or is he really experiencing anxiety associated with the risks of having unprotected s*x with a stranger? I feel he should keep that anxiety to himself since he was the one that screwed up. I'm sick of suffering for his mistake and am looking for some guidance or thoughts about the situation. What do you think he's thinking!?
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