My job has ruined me.. I am a shell of a person.

Question

Has anybody had a job that has made them feel so small that they just couldn't take it? I've only worked at my job for 2 weeks and I have not had a shift where I wasn't choking back tears. I work at an outbound call centre where I'm forced to dial 120 numbers an hour (by hand) and beg rude people to take surveys. I literally spend about 2 hours per shift with tears in my eyes praying that the next person doesnt pick up and hear me crying. I have NEVER been this way until this job. When I'm not crying at work now I'm at home physically shaking, dreading my next shift, and it's transitioned into my dreams, making every sleep full of nightmares. I even somehow forget to eat now. My boss says "I'll get used to it".. Is this normal?? I've never thought I needed mental help in my life until now. I'm a college student with a pretty crappy resume- I searched for five weeks and this was the first job that I was offered so I took it. Somebody tell me... Should ANYBODY get used to this? Is it just me? I'm seriously considering going on some type of medication.. Has anybody had a job that made them so depressed? How long did you work there? What did you do next?

Answer 1

I had a buddy who would work himself into a physical illness over a job.  He quit after about a month.  It's not worth it, if you are having the sort of reaction you describe.  So your choices are:

1.  get tougher, suck it up and do the job

2.  quit

(You ain't married to your job)

Answer 2

Yes.

My last job did force me into getting medication. I worked my way up to management for 8 yrs. only to have the business sold to foreigners. At first they seemd nice and I tried to allow time for adjustment, but it just got too much. Everyday I had to hear about how much my country sucks, that our culture is bad.Constantly had to endure racist remarks about blacks and mexicans (I'm white) . I listened to why Hillary Clinton shouldn't be president because she's not capable, being a woman and all. Watched as he tried and often succeeded in ripping people off, lying to employees, and getting me to do his dirty work. I sucked it up for 3 years until I knew if I didn't quit I would snap and do God knows what. I have never felt that way in my life and hope I never will again.

Now I'm unemployed and it has been extremely stressfull as well. I don't know what my next move is and even though I miss my work and paycheck, I know it's what I had to do. It's not worth it to sell your soul for a check at the end of the week. I can't tell you what to do next as I can't even answer that for myself, but don't let a job ruin your health or emotionally and mentally devastate you.

I wish you all the best and I REALLY do know how you feel.

Answer 3

Go find a job that makes you feel good about yourself. You don't need the stress that it causes. If you truly hate it, my question is why are you still there?

Answer 4

OMG JUST QUIT IF YOU HATE IT SO MUCH.

Nobody is FORCING you to stay.

Answer 5

quit the job if it bothers you that much. there are other jobs out there

Answer 6

start looking for another job. if it's doing this to you, you need to get away as fast as possible. you won't get used  to it easily. talk to someone about it. just vent to one of your friends. hopefully, you can find another job. im sorry you had to go through this.