My parents are alcoholics and abusive?

Question

I'm 15 years old and a sophomore in highschool and I am confused about why I'm even living on this earth.

When I was born my parents seldom took care of me and I was left alone a lot without bottles or any sort of necesities. When I was about three my dad started making me do hard chores and if I didn't do a good enough of a job on them he would hit me or lock me outiside of the house for hours. When I started school my parents never picked me up from school so I had to walk home two miles. When I got home my parents were always drunk or if my mom was home alone she was with another man. Life continued to get harder as I reached middle school. My mom and dad would always be drunk and I was the one who would have to clean up after them and do many of the household duties, which led me to get failing grades in school, which led to abuse. My mom would pull my hair or throw anything heavy at me. My dad yelled at me and locked me in the garage in the pitch black for the rest of the night. Everyday has been a nightmare for me.

I get bullied at school and everyone calls me stupid because I'm doing terrible in my classes. But how the **** can I do well in class if I have to take care of a house and live through this aganizing pain?

Yesterday I got back from a friends house and my mom asked why I had been so late and she yelled at me, I went to my room and as I was getting ready for bed she came into my room, broke my laptop by throwing it at me, missing though by hitting the wall, broke my cellphone and threw a wine bottle at me, which hit me right on the shoulder.

Last night when my parents were asleep I packed a tote bag and I snuck out my window and ran miles to nowhere. I slept outside of a park because I was scared that my mom was going to try to kill me. In the morning I decided to go to a friends house for the rest of the day. My friend does marajuana, but still it is better than being my own house. I'm on her computer right now.

Honestly, i have been quite all my life about my family and my personal problems. I am depressed, and I wont get any better anytime soon. My other family members havent talked to me in over ten years. What should I do? Ive attempted suicide.

does anyone love me?

Answer 1

you'll find someone don't worry. taking your life should not be an option move out to a relatives place or something.

Answer 2

The best thing to do its the hardest thing to do. I just cant seem to understand why people in your situation have such a hard time going to the authourities.  Dont think they wont help.  they will!  You need to contact child and family services or even the police.  Explain the situation and everything you have said here.  They will send someone to asess the living conditions and even have your parents psycologically examined.  They will then discover that nobody should live in a situation like that and they will find a very good home for you where you can be happy and begin your road to recovery.  Dont be afraid to take action.  You will only end up hurting more if you keep living there.  Try telling your friends parents and have them help you go to the authorities.  The truth is, your parents are criminals who need to be punished and you are an amazing person who needs and deserves a good life.

Hope this helps!  

Answer 3

Well, there are two things you can do about this.

One, you can stick to your life and grow up regretting what you could have been. Look around at the word in self-pity and watch other kids who grew up with a better surrounding.

Or if you're sick of the life that you're living in and want out, away from your parents, away from the drugs and alcohal and start a new life...

Contact social services. It's where a social worker can place you in a foster home with better chances of getting out of the situations and becoming whatever you aspire to be. Doctor, lawyer, etc.

I'm not positive on how the process goes, but go with a proof of how your daily life is like. I think.

Or if you think that's too much of an extreme, then go to a close relative's house. A person who really cares for you. Grandma, Aunt, Uncle, etc.

Contact somewhere that can help you. Get away from kids who do drugs, alcohal, etc. If you want to become something of yourself, then act on it. Hope this helped.

and Good Luck to you.  

Answer 4

it is not fair for you to have to live like this you need to report it if you are at your friends house and dont want to go back to your house.

you could be happier if you lived somewhere else and your parents need to be reported because thats not right. DONT PARENTS SUCK!

Answer 5

Boy, did I see myself in your story.  

You need to speak to an adult you can trust; a counsellor at your school, the parent of a friend, or to somebody in social services.  Believe me when I say that I didn't do that when I was your age, and I was in years of therapy before I was completely happy.  Leaving the home is a physically safe thing to do, but the emotional scars last for many years.  You may want to see if there is an Al-Ateen or Al-Anon in your area.  

Best of luck to you.  There are people who can help you, but you will have to ask for the help.  Loving yourself enough to do this, makes you loveable to others.

Answer 6

yes they are, sweetie, its not your fault.. call cps, or the police, you will never have to see them again

Answer 7

You need to tell a teacher or a law official. I know it's hard to hear and I'm sorry, but you have to do it. Keep faith in yourself. There is a purpose for you being here. You are special, and strong, and IMPORTANT. You are a human being and don't you ever forget that. You deserve to be happy. So go tell. Live in a group home, perhaps, and work your way through a job. You will be successful. Work hard, and if you go live somewhere else I know you could get your grades up. Your life matters and the world would be much worse without you here. Remember that this is NOT your fault. You did nothing wrong. This is their fault.

You are VALUABLE.

Yes. God loves you, always, and there are people waiting out here for you, to love you, and there always will be. Your story is touching and I will never forget you or your story. (:

God Bless.