I don't know why I am asking complete strangers about my personal life but I have no where else to turn.So here it goes...I have been married 10 years and in the beginning it was a fairy tale come true.After the first year I found out that all phone calls were being recorded which continues to this day.Then he became very controlling,not letting me work or have any friends.If I tryed to leave he would chase me in his car with his high beams on trying to run me off the road.Then he got a computer!p**n day and night!I managed to get a peek at his computer one day and I wish I wouldn't have looked.Most of the p**n sites are titled teen or young girls and some of the pics saved on his computer looked like underage girls.He has also been pretending to be me talking to men online,even has my picture as his own.I have put up with alot of verbal and emotional abuse over the years but this just tops it.And now on top of it all I found a wireless hidden cam box in the shed!No privacy!He won't talk to me about any of this,just screams and talks about things that have nothing to do with any of this!I know I should just leave but it's easier said than done.àfeel so insecure with myself.Can I just walk away,am I strong enough,I don't know.I have been sooo depressed that I have even thought of suicide,to just stop the pain.After all this I do still love him.What's wrong with me?
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