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Question

Today we were at the family house and I’m a new police officer we are highly trained to not be touched at all time, I just got back from work very tired and my brother was over. I live at the family house he doesn’t he is older. When he was leaving we had a little argument about something and he called me retarded many times and I said " what is this you keep on calling me names take it easy" as soon as I said that he reached to hit me in the face as a little brother kind of thing and I took his hand and punched him in the Chest very hard saying "Who do you think your hitting" I felt so bad hitting someone like that specially my brother, I was in shock of what I did and just said "ok leave" and closed the door on him.

I feel very bad

I’m not like this

Is it my job, was I Tired, or just reflects?

Answer 1

All of the above.  I've had similar incidents happen to me.  Don't be too hard on yourself.  Apologize to your brother.  I'm sure he will understand.  If he doesn't, he'll get over it.  I have a little brother too.  I would never be able to be mad at him forever.  Good luck!

Answer 2

Pray for our American Justice System, this is what our law enforcement is coming to, Excuse me, you just said you are "highly trained"...in WHAT? being an A$$?. You turn my stomach and I fear for those you run into when you are having a bad day.

I will say, you just showed some true cop colors.

Bet the Boys n Blue are REALLY proud of you!!    (barf)

Answer 3

Max,

You ned to sit down with your family and explain to them that they shouldn't try horsing around with you suddenly. espceialy if you're tired, distracted, etc. Having worked urban EMS for several years, I had similar "edgyness" when tired if my family tried to touch me after a long shift. After 8+hrs that instinct to avoid being touched in certain ways can become strong. One of the things that helped me was having a hour long drive to get home, it helped me switch from the work mindset to the home mindset. With time you'll get better at relaxing at the end of the day. So, just make your family aware of what's going on and it should help.

- David

Answer 4

What is your first language? I hope when you are articulating your reason for using force in arrest reports, you do so better than you just have on here. This reads like a voluntary statement I would get from one of the parties at a domestic. Also, it would have been your "reflexes".

Answer 5

"reflex"