No matter how hard I try it's not good enough.?

Question

hey. I'm going to be a freshman tomorrow and my life has basicly sucked. My mom was addicted to drugs and would leave me home alone for like 2 weeks at a time when I was like 8. All the while my father was at work and you cant pry that man from his work for anything. so there I sat alone.

So I started acting out. Never did any home work..never came home, but worst of all..I stumbeled into cutting myself when I was 11 and my mom hit me.

Well now I don't like listening to anything my parents say because now I feel that they have no right to act like any sort of parental figure twoards me because they never were before. But im trying really hard to be better at listening to them.

Last night I cut for the first time in like 2 months so that's really good!

I've been trying soo hard.

I've prepared for school very much so that It will be easier for me during the year and I'm going to work my butt off to get good grades. (I even did homework over the summer so I could do less during the year)

And my parents keep treating me like c**p. I'll slip up and say a swear word and I'll get screamed at. my room is currently a mess and my dad started screaming at me about how I'm such a s***w up and everything I do is wrong.

I want to get better at all of this but every time I try I get put down like I'm not good enough..

why are they like this to me?

(sorry its so long)

Answer 1

It sounds like your parents are unhappy with themselves and unfortunately it's easiest to vent their unhappiness to you.  It's not fair and it's not right.

You just continue doing your job as a teenager.  Get through school with good grades and become the adult you want your parents to be.  Cutting isn't going to do anything for you... certainly not get the attention you are looking for.

Try to stay out of trouble and before you know it you'll be able to move out!!  

Answer 2

Am not gonna read all that but seriously life is not a fairy tale. I don't know anyones life thats perfect. my life sucks but I live wit it ..

If you feel like cutting helps you then cut yourself

Again I didn't read all that I only read the first sentence and somewhere in the middle where it talks abt cutting

Answer 3

Just keep your head up and be a better person for yourself. You know what you do and don't do. Keep your grades up for you, it has never and will never benefit them for you to have good grades, that is for your sole satisfaction and benefit. Without good grades you will only prolong your stay with them. With good grades you can run off to college and get a job where you can buy all the groceries you want.

Answer 4

Maybe your parents are just really worried about raising you as a good smart kid and get really upset and overreact at every mistake you make. Try telling them that your only human and you make mistakes too and they need to accept them and that your sorry for them.

If your parents blame you for something that you didnt do and you know even if you argue with them they won't forgive you then don't argue with them. Just walk away and give them a couple hours to cool down.

Cutting is not good for you mentally or physically. Next time you feel like cutting do something to take your mind off it. Fiddle around with something, play a computer game, call up a friend. Also, throw away anything that you know you will cut yourself with.

I honestly can't tell you why theyre like this to you but just try being the best you can be to your own potential. And its OKAY to slip up its not your fault your only human.

I hope you have fun in highschool! =)

btw dark blue by jacks mannequin is your name thingy right? i LOVE that song haha.

Good luck :) stay strong!

Answer 5

Hold your head up and just keep doing your best. Work your butt off in school like you say you are so that you can suceed in life and prove to them how good of a person you are or better yet so you can prove it to yourself. Don't cut yourself! It doesn't do any good and the only person that it hurts is you. If it's possible, try to find someone that you trust and can talk to. Talking helps immensely. Best of luck to you.