ok you know the song what hurts the most - rascal flatts
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QJEs1TyzL_A
besides the death part, this song is so frickin right on with my life. not that anyone really cares but this is what i mean (my story)
'im not affraid to cry every once in a while even though going on with you gone still usets me' - every once in a blue moon i cry over the fact that my ex and i broke up and he's moved on its been almost 3 months now.
'there are days every now and again i pretend im okay' - actually most of the time i pretend im okay, i think i am til i hear sad songs like this and realize im not but if i told anyone im still not over him they would think i was pathetic.
'what hurts the most, was being so close, and having so much to say' - what kills me is the fact that he used to write me i love you notes and put them in my locker and other places around my room for me to find, we would sleep together almost every night and just stay up talking for hours, he told me things he's never told a girl before, and i was his longest relationship. so yeah you could say we were pretty close!
'and watching you walk away' - then all the sudden he just, stopped, he didnt want to be with me anymore, he couldnt tell me why.
'and never knowing what could've been' - he used to tell me how i would move in with him and his best friend after school was done with and stuff like that, but then like 2 months later everything changed so we'll never know "what could've been".
'and not seeing that loving you, is what i was trying to do' - i guess he never really realized how much i loved him and thats all i wanted was to love him.
'its hard to deal with the pain of loosing you everywhere i go' - pretty much everything that happens, everything people say, it reminds me of him. he's almost never off my mind.
'its hard to force a smile when i see our old friends and im alone' - well, he's a pretty well known guy and has like a trillion friends that go over to his house, and you see he lives next door to me so i see his friends (who used to be my friends too) go by my house almost every day.
'its harder gettin up gettin dressed' - ever since the break up i've been getting up at like 2pm, before my normal time was like 10/11 am.
"but i know if i could do it over, i would trade, give away... [etc..] - i now know the reason he stopped loving me, he wanted a super layed back girlfriend and i wasnt a bad gf or anything but i did complain about the things he did that i didnt like, if i could go back and do it over i'd change anything.
but what REALLY hurts the most,
is that when we broke up after a year, he gets a new gf after 2 weeks.
a girl that pretty much 3/4ths of the girls in our school cant stand
when everyone loves me... hmm
so yeah, pretty sh itty
picture of me and him [not a good pic nd very oldbut it was all i had left] http://i177.photobucket.com/albums/w202/missnoseyx14x/sleepinginblue-1.jpg
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