Not going to see him for a a little over a week and I really need him there. Sorry long..

Question

My boyfriend is leaving Sunday to go to camp and he won't get service all the time up there and gets out thrs or friday and is going to stay with his dad for the weekend [Parents not together... etc]...

Now I am not saying how to deal.. I just need him here and I don't know HOW to deal. Since well my grandpa is dieing right now as I am typing this [Kidney's failing] and its hard on me since he was the only one that has all the way accepted my boyfriend and been there for me.

Yes I have friends..well friend to talk to and be with but its just not the same, when he just holds me it makes things seem better and I won't have it. I just feel I need him there, I found out yesterday that he might be alive for a few more weeks maybe[he won't do dialise] and today this morning I didn't wanna get outta bed or do anything, move or get up or just anything, I just felt like sleeping so I could forget about all my problems and wish them away [ I know it won't work] But he is the one that made me get up and just helped me to not feel so bad...

My main question is how can I not be so depressed and just be myself more without him being able to be there with me.

positive thinking helps..kinda

Sleeping helps sometimes unless I have nightmares about my grandpa dieing...

If I told my family they won't care much about me until he is on his like last few days or afterwards... not even then.

Answer 1

WHOOOOOO CAAAAAREEEEEESSSSSS

seriously flute up v****a to you.

Answer 2

this may sound bad, but it is not meant to be. this is what they call life, grandparents r supposed to die first, sounds like this may be the first death you have had to deal with. well just so you know it doesn't get any easier. forget the boyfriend and stop being a drama queen which also is very selfish, spend the time you have left with your grandfather, the boyfriend will be there later.

Answer 3

Picture yourself conquering anything by yourself! You sound like you have dependency issues so just think about how strong you can be. If you can be completely strong alone, just think how much better that will be even when he comes back! Your family is not full of open hearted people that are there for each other so that makes it tough. I have a family like that too. When I was in high school I had a similar situation with an aunt. I secluded myself from everyone because I couldn't lean on anyone when I needed to but they were all willing to cry to me. I pulled my strength up and fended for myself. I didn't go to the funeral because I didn't want to face anyone and it was one of the biggest regrets of my life. Don't make the mistake of getting caught up in feeling bad for the wrong reasons. He'll be there. If you're stronger, he'll be more attracted to you anyway!