Hey, I'm a fifteen year old who's going to be a sophomore in high school. I say I get pretty decent grades (All A's and I got a C in Algebra), I'm going to be in the choir, golf team, SADD (Students Against Destructive Decisions), the yearbook and I can play three instruments : the flute (8 - 9 years), fife (3 - 4 years), and piccolo (2 years).
Ever since I was so young I knew what I wanted to do as an adult - I wanted to write young adult books and pursue a career that I love to wake up every morning to. I never wanted to be a person who had a job they absolutely hated going to. Writing has always been a passion of mine, I've been writing ever since I had my first journal (where I put my short stories in), I've won a couple writing contests and I even got to meet an author in the fourth grade when I won a writing contest and meeting that person who was doing what I wanted to do just made me even more dead set on knowing that this is what I'm going to be doing for the rest of my life.
Well, in seventh grade I started trying to write my book but ever since then I just seem to delete it and start a new story then delete that story and start a new one. I just can't seem to stick with my story. Maybe it's because I'm so afraid that I won't be successful at what I do.
Now I'm going to be a sophomore and I'm having second thoughts. I know, I know for a fact that I still want to be an author - but I'm thinking that I may need a second option just in case. But the question is - I'm not sure what my "second option" can be!
The one thing I know for a fact I never want to be is I don't want to be a lawyer, teacher, or anything involving medicine. A lawyer in my opinion would be too boring of a job for me and it won't allow me to release my creative outlet that I have. And as for anything in the medical field - well my mom is a nurse - a very successful one but seeing as to what she had to go through - I don't want to go through that, besides she sort of advises me not to be a nurse from her personal experience - she loves it but there's a love/hate relationship with it. Besides, after a year of Honors Physical Science and trying to get ready for either Chemistry or Biology both the teacher and I know that anything in the medical field wouldn't work for me. It's not something that could hold my interest. As for a teacher - let's just say I'm not the most patient person in the world so I don't think it would work out with me teaching kids.
So I wiped out those three options, but the biggest worry is what's there to choose?
I tried to choose based on my interests and what I'm really passionate about doing (besides writing) and here's what I came up with :
- I love making stuff on the computer - signatures, wallpapers, avatars. I have like Paint Shop Pro or whatever and I just like making stuff with it. I'm not the best at it, but with practice and a lot of hard work I've become increasingly better. My blending is a whole lot better and less sloppy. I'm the person my friends go to when they need something for their Myspace. But I'm also not the most technical person in the world - while I know what I'm doing when I make the little graphics - I don't know the computer terms that may be used.
- Playing the flute, I'm very passionate when it comes to music, I absolutely love it and I don't think my life would be any good without it. I love playing so many classical pieces on my flute and I also like to play a lot of Irish music with my flute and fife. I do have some trouble sometimes when it comes to making sure the rythm is played exactly how it should - but that's because I can be a little impatient. However, when I actually clap it out it comes out nicely. I love being in flute competitions and just performing at churces, retirement homes, local festivals - anything of the sort - oh and I love marching band.
- I also like to help my friends with giving advice (which is why I come on here), I love helping my friends whether it's about relationships, their family issues, trouble with friends, etc. I guess I just feel good knowing that I gave someone advice - it might not always be the best - but it's usually okay.
Those, I would say are my three main interest besides fashion and clothes and reading. I'm stuck. I've thought about doing something like physcology, I don't know why I like it - I've just thought about it as interesting or maybe becoming like a family therapist or something. But I don't want to be going to school forever and I'm scared it would be too hard.
See this is where I'm having trouble - always second guessing myself and my goals I might have. So if anybody can help me out of what careers might be best for someone like me, it would help out a ton. Like I said before - I'm dead set on becoming an author and I will do anything it takes - but I think a second option is needed if I want to bring home the cheddar.
Also I don't know if it helps - but I don't want a family when I grow up. At seven I made it clear that I don't want children. In fact when I'm twenty I'd love to get my tubes tied. I never wanted kids because I always wanted a career - besides I think I'd be super selfish to have kids seeing as I'd work full time and never be home to take care of the kids.
Any help is much appreciated also if you can give me an idea of where I could go to college. I've always, always had a dream of going to NYU - but I have to be realistic and have at least a few other idea's. I live in Ohio and I know for a FACT that I want an OUT of state college. I need to get out of this state so badly it's not even funny, I just need to see something other than Ohio. So an out of state is a must with me.
I know this is a lot to ask but I know some of you who are older must know what I feel like. I just need a little help. I appreaciate any help. Thank you. :)
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