Here's my question, you've heard about synchronicity in life and "coincidences", right? And how you can manifest things just by thinking about them. But my question is, what about people with ocd? They get intrusive thoughts and sometimes, some people (like me), obsess over a certain thing 24/7. It'll be all that's on their mind (I'm obsessed with HIV/Illnesses). Well, because they're thinking about it so much and getting intrusive thoughts about it and are overly obsessed and worried about it, does it mean they'll come true? I've found in the past 2 years or so, that whenever I think about something or someone, it tends to happen. For example, and this is kind of a dumb example, but still. Anyway, I was on someone's top 8 on myspace. Someone I really like and I told my friend I'm afraid to show anyone because I might be taken off. Then I kept getting intrusive thoughts about it. Well, 2 days later, everyone was taken off the top. Someone said it had been hacked into or something very confusing, I forget what it was exactly. But I end up seeing people when I think abou them, and all these things happen when I think about them and I'm beginning to think I'm making these things happen. And for someone with ocd, bipolar, and schizotypal personality disorder, and a whole bunch of other anxiety disorders, this can be a pretty scary thing. Especially when the thing you're obsessed with is HIV. I always feel like something is after me or wanting to infect me. I don't even have s*x or do drugs or had any blood transfusions or anything (knock on wood). But I feel like just to eat at restaurants is putting myself at risk because I'm afriad/convinced that people/something is trying to infect me. How do you know when it's just your mental illness doing this to you, or when it's becoming something a little more complicated? Do you think if you think/obsess about something (like this disease), you can make situations happen even if you don't put yourself at risk (have s*x, do drugs, etc...)? Since it's intrusive thoughts due to my ocd, it doesn't really count, right?
Sorry if this is confusing. Thanks!
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