ok about the s*x addict thing..i mean im not one yet..im not actually doing it only because im scared im going to get pregnant or something but i have been fingered. im only 15 and before i could even spell the word s*x i knew what it was. my sister was about 9 or 10 and i was like 5 or 6 and she told me that big girls do this, and she was humping a pillow and she told me to do it too..i had my first o****m or close to it. ever since i was like humping pillows every night, and my sister made me watch p**n was i was like 7..now all i think about basically is s*x. i cant help it! its sick! i m********e A LOT, and whenever i see a cute guy thats all i think about..which i dont think is very normal for a girl. i mean im obviously not a s*x addict if im not having it but idk it seems a little weird that thats all i think about when other girls dont seem to as much as me. i mean, if there is no boys around..no matter how much of my best girlfriends are with me i cant have fun! i cant have a single girls night !
as for the developing eating disorder..everyy one tells me i have the perfect body, i dont need to lose any weight..but im obsessed! i can go a longg time eating healthy and i eat one thing thats bad for you and i ask people if i gained any weight. i guess i ask that often cause they get really annoyed..i used to be a vegetarian..not because i love animals( i do though..)but because i wanted to lose weight. my mom made me pick a meat to eat because i wasnt doing it healthy so i picked chicken. . i used to practically starve myself eating like 500 or less calories a day. i used to run like at least 2 miles mostly about 4-6 a day. i said it was to train for lacrosse. that was a lie. i would run at like 5 in the morning. i would run when it was pouring outside. so anyway my half sister has been staying with us and EVERY SINGLE NIGHT she wants to bake something and we eat like the whole thing, and then i ask my dad if i gained any weight, he says no, annoyed, i go in my room and start crying. tonight she was basically forcing me to eat cookies, so i ate one, then i couldnt stop, i ate like five..then i said i was going to change and i threw up..ive tried it a couple times before but it didnt work..this time it did..and i still feel horrible about the cookies. but the worst part is i dont feel bad at all for throwing up! i feel bad that i dont feel bad..if that makes sense.
i know this is longg as h**l..but do you think i have a problem, or am i just overreacting?? idk..i mean i dont really think i have an eating disorder but most girls dont..then it gets worse. as for the s*x fiend thing obviously i cant be a nymphomaniac if i havent gone all the way, but is it weird that i think about it all the time? whenever i ask a question about it on here most people say its hormones cause im 15, but ive been thinking about it since i was 5!! freakingg 5 years old!
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