hi, i'm 22 years old. i suffer from diagnosed depression and i have stopped taking my prozac because it didn't seem to do anything. i was doing pretty okay at the time. great in school and good relationship w/boyfriend. however, since about a month ago, we have broken up (timing), i have been deeply upset about various college things, things have deteriorated with family and friends. i have become angry, and at any point, i complain about everything and bite everyone's head off. in short, i'm a terrible ***** to everyone i come in contact with but i really can't help it. in two particular instances i have had a terrible reaction to anger/ adrenaline related instances. the first time i wrote a semi-nasty/less than nice comment on a check to the waitress and left in a hurry feeling amused and a rush of excitement of doing something mean( never been mean to a wait person before). seconds later, i feel nervous, anxious, and like i'm about to vomit. i've had these feelings before because of my phobia, emetophobia. it takes effort to calm down. the second instance was at the airport when i'm sitting in the back seat of the car and a parking cop tries to slap a ticket on the car. i jump out and explain/exclaim that we're just here for 2 mins and i get oddly argumentative( i'm never confrontational, but i've always wanted to be). we don't get a ticket but i end up bad mouthing the parking cop while driving away and i get the same anxious/nervous/scared/about to vomit feeling. what the h**l is going on? i argue all the time but these times, i feel sick afterwards. i want to be confrontational and not feel sick! help!
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