Ok, i admit i have a problem...now what? (cutting)?

Question

i cut, i was clean for 3 years but now im bakk in the same spot...

my bf says he wont leave me, but htat if i dont stop, he wont come over, and may or may not keep answering my calls, and that he'll stop calling me, i want to stop...any suggestions,

WHY i STARTED AGAIN

recent divorce of parents,

flashbacks

moms mad all the time

school class is way to hard, cant drop class because mom thinks i can do better than i am...its a college class

brother is just cruel

stress

idk wat else im just always depressed

i need help, i dont know how to do wat i need to do to stop, heck i dont even know wat i need to do, the only reason i want to quit is to see my bf, anad he knows it...

Answer 1

Well, you're not physically addicted to cutting, so just quit.  It surely can't be good for you, and when you're older you're gonna hate the scars. Willpower, Sweetie.

If you think you have real clinical depression, you should see your doctor!  There are so may antidepressants available, and they really work!  If you feel like you're in a deep black hole with no sunshine, and you're just going through the motions, and you don't laugh real laughs, those are signs of depression. In two weeks your world can be sunny again!

Bless you and good luck!  :)

Answer 2

That's gross, why would you cut your skin.  You're going to be middle age full of scars one day. Your boyfriend must think you're so attractive...not.  I feel really sorry for him, he must feel trapped, like he's stuck with you "or else".  Stop being so selfish.  Grow up and take control of your actions.  Your boyfriend should dump you and let you sort yourself out without putting all that **** on him.

Answer 3

You are cutting because the pain inside you is so great that you want to feel on the outside what others don't see on the inside, it's a cry for help as well as a way to make the pain "real" so to speak.

You feel alone and helpless and the only way to express this in your current understanding is to cut, not for attention, in fact I am sure you hide it as best you can, but to somehow feel the pain on a physical level.

What you really need is an outlet, someone to talk to, someone who understands or can relate to what you feel without feeling it themself. Please try to find this, be it a therapist or a close friend or maybe even your mom, if you try to actually sit her down when she is not angry and open up to her.

Trust me, as a mom, we can get caught up in life but the MOST important thing in the world will always be our babies, I don't know you or your situation but what have you got to lose for trying? You shouldn't be alone in this situation and if you are honest with your mom about your feelings and what you are doing I feel sure she will get past her own pain and see yours.

I'm praying for you!

Answer 4

I know how that is. Well... what I ended up doing was focusing on only the good things in my life, however small. The rest of my life, school, home, parents all that I kind of lived on auto pilot. Not really caring but moving through them all the same. Where I really lived was in those small moments I was truly happy. I build myself a fortress, and at the top of that fortress I watched my life. I looked through all the depressing mess for the small glimmers of joy and took them and hid them behind my wall. That way I really did live a happy life, when I did live at all.

The reason I say this in past tense is because my life is different then it used to be, and basically I've been forced to grow up. The only good that came out of this is that I lead my own life now at least. I'm 19 if you want to know. Haven't even begun to live yet.

Answer 5

I was self destructive before it was trendy to be self-destructive (early 70's).  In the 90's, I finally shared my problem with a friend, who provided me with the website I am about to give you. It was very helpful to me, and I think you will find a lot of help, there, too.

Here: http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/injur...

  

Answer 6

find a more constructive way to vent.  take up martial arts.  get a punching bag and take your frustrations out on that.  you get a good work-out in on a bad day, you'll be too tired to cut.

Answer 7

Life is tough and cruel. Get used to it. When my best friend died, I cut. I cut for 5 years straight. I just woke up and realized that I was hurting the people I loved more than I was healing myself.

I became unselfish and realized that they don't deserve the pressure of me doing this to myself.

Tell yourself you need to stop, stick to it, and you will.

Answer 8

If you start exercising in the mornings it will help you feel better thru out the day.

Go for a run when you wake up. Drink enough water and stretch.

You will sleep better too!  

Answer 9

try finding a Hobie playing sports keep your self going. i know for me when i am stress i go out and kick the ball around or i go swimming. for my sister she does art and cafts i would find somthing you like doing a lot.