i got really down the other day when i started thinking about things (my parents divorced recently) and i just reached for a pair of nail scissors and made a small cut across my wrist (just less than 1cm)...
i don't know why i did it, its not like i'd ever thought about it before or like i wanted to do it, i just did it...
and then after it felt really good and i liked the way it looked...
the next night i did the same thing slightly higher, another small cut, and then the day after that i did it again, but the scissors weren't really that sharp and i really had to press hard and keep going over it to draw blood...
then yesterday i was in the shower and after i got out i broke my razor apart and made 4 small slices (1/2cm each) and one long one (2cm) with the blade and the razor made it so easy to do, it was so sharp... and seeing the blood welling up felt really good... and i wasn't even in a down mood then, i was fine i just felt like i needed to do it...
i'm really worried that i might become addicted but it feels really good when i do it...
its not like i'm suicidal either i just get depressed sometimes
any help?
Gemma D
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