I needed someone to tell this to besides my best friend so that's why I came to you guys. I've had a slight weight problem throughout my life and it has really been rough. During the past school year I lost 30 pounds but not in the best way. I hid everything from my parents. I skipped breakfast every morning, which they actually didn't mind because they thought that it was fairly normal. I also skipped lunch everyday. Whenever I came home from school for supper I hardly ate anything. I felt really bad about my mom giving me lunch money so I told her that "I would pay for it myself". I also worked out so hard during my Phys. Ed. class on an empty stomach since it was right after lunch. Even though I did lose a lot of weight I still see nothing good in myself. I hate when people give me complements about my hair or my clear complexion because I hate hearing good things about myself I guess. I still want to lose more weight. I talked to one of my best friends about this and she thinks that I may be going through depression. I have a lot of the symptoms like neck and back pain. Another one of my friends pointed out that I was very pessimistic and I know that it is true. My parents don't assume that anything is wrong with me except for my hatred of my weight. I also have started doing terrible in school all of a sudden. I was making straight A's and then this past year I made a D in Geometry and an F in science! I really want to boost up my self-esteem, start doing good on my grades again, and begin to accomplish all of the things that I have always wanted to in life.
Of course I haven't told you guys everything that has happened in this situation. I actually still have worse things hiding deep down inside of me, but it would be nice to get some advice or something about this.
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