PLEASE HELP I'M SERIOUSLY GOING CRAZY!

Question

I've been feeling very depressed thinking a lot about death, I just can't get It out of my head:( I've tried talking to my close friends and family I tried getting back in touch with my religion. Yet nothing seems to get better I want to go see a doctor but I really don't want to get on meds! I see everything different like with no meaning... I feel everyone has a point in life but me (the way I'm thinking is why bother and nothings has a point if I'm going to die anyways I see people and all I see in them is death) I want to override these thoughts with "happy thoughts" but i just can't

I'm 19 i live at home with mom and dad I work but I don't go to school I have a boyfriend whom I've been with for 4 years and a half! he's been here for me through these hard times I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WRONG, WHY I'M FEELING LIKE THESE

maybe It's just my Iron that's low please help

I NEED SOME ADVICE OR IF YOU GUYS COULD SHARE YOUR STORIES!!!

Answer 1

Please take Michelle's advice

Answer 2

you NEED to go to a doctor

for tests

and unfortunately likely medication and possibly therapy to learn about what is going on with you; possibly learn some ways to cope with anxiety.

would you tell a diabetic not to take his insulin?

the brain sometimes gets depleted of chemicals such as seratonin

anyhow to the doctor for you to get evaluated

life is too short to not be enjoyed; solve this then get on with enjoying life

Answer 3

Please take Michelle's advice, and the advice of those who said you must see a doctor. Yes, occupying yourself, taking up new hobbies, exercising, etc., can work to an extent, and works for some people--but not people who are truly clinically depressed. Depression is an illness, and you can't hope it away.

Answer 4

Ask yourself if you are willing to do anything it takes to change how you feel? Ask yourself how much you want to feel different? If you are willing on both counts then why would you not be willing to have medication if it is the answer for you?

You sound as if you may have clinical depression. When that occurs, medication with talk therapy is often the answer. I am not trying to diagnose you. I am not qualified. However I am giving you a little of my own experience. Clinical depression is different from situational depression in that it requires absolutely no provocation to be there. It just is and drags on and on. It has to do with the brain chemicals. Medication helps because it straightens up the brain, giving it a push here and a nudge there, so to speak. I am not trying to get you to be on meds, I am simply suggesting treatment isn't up to the patient so much as it is to the doctor, when it comes to dishing up the solution. Of course its always your choice as to accepting the treatment. I hope you won't rule out any thing a doctor may suggest just on the principle of not wanting to take meds. God bless you and I hope you will enjoy the rest of the journey. BTW I take medication. I am a very intelligent, educated woman and I lead a wonderful life. When I wasn't on my medication I felt quite like you describe.  I was hesitant to take medication however I am so glad I opted to. It has improved the quality of my life.

Answer 5

Go to the doctors if you want. It might help you... you may also not like it. BUT! you will never know until you try.

I am in the same boat you are (also 19) I found ways to cope though they are all bad ways and I wouldn't exactly recommend them. Do what it takes to get you to feel some balance and normalcy to your emotions. Try taking up a hobby or something, or maybe join a gym, exercise is good for the body and also the mind. It balances things out. I did Tae Kwon Do for awhile (I'd still be doing it if I had the $) it helped me A LOT to balance my emotions out and feel more stable.

I get what you mean by "seeing death" in people... you just have to try and focus and what you have now and how precious it is, even with all the faults and ugly things that go along with it, because nothing could be beautiful if there wasn't something ugly to compare it to,  right?