Im a sufferer of bdd i feel i have to look a certain way or else im to ugly to be seen,friends family and strangers always used to tell me how beautifull i am and, how i am lucky to have the whole package.back then i didnt believe them but it didnt cause me any problems , but because people "sterotyped" me as beautifull i wanted to know what that was but when i started looking in mags like vogue or at models,, i didnt look like any of them so i picked myself apart basically and have bdd because im trying to be like them. i don't know what the h**l i'm suppose to look like to be beautifull ,all iknow is i can't stand my own reflection i want to tear my face of or make it undistorted i constantly hurt myself iv'e got bruises everywhere because i throw myself at walls or whatevers there i cut my arms ,hit myself in the face ijust can't stand my facehow the h**l did i go from me to this monster i hate myself and i really don't know what im suppose to do no therapy has helped anyone help please??
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